The music starts to fill the room, but my soul is feeling separated. I try to let go of all my feelings and worship but I just am not ok.
I look up, because I am distracted, and there she is leaving someone else’s side to walk over to me. Seeking me out. She lifts her arms wanting me to embrace her. Willingly I lift her up into my arms as she snuggles her head into my shoulder.
I look up to the heavens, how did He know. He knew exactly what I needed at that moment.
I finally am able to connect to the worship and start singing my heart out in praise to the Lord. Song after song penetrating the depths of my soul.
As the music fades and the transition into the message happens I find a chair to sit down but she doesn’t leave my arms. I watch her as she slowly drifts off into the distant land of dreams and that is when it his me.
This is exactly how the Lord wants and beckons us to come to Him. He doesn’t want us all put together or having everything under control. He wants us in our brokenness, confusion, pain, joy, sadness, freedom, and sorrow. He wants all of us always.
What safer place to come and be vulnerable then in the arms of your Creator and Heavenly Father.
Her name is Srey Dey and she has been Jesus in the flesh to me more then one time this month. It is crazy how much the Lord can teach us through the interactions of such a small person.
My prayer is that I continually run into the arms of my Father and rest in His embrace as Srey Dey did with me that night.
