This probably makes me sound bad . . . but I have to admit that I didn’t have the best attitude coming into this month. To be honest, my attitude was BAD.
As we enter month 8 of this journey, I am tired and am starting to feel drained. I can see the end of the journey and am beginning to truly long for home more often than I have in past months. I also felt really connected to the communities, people, and ministries in Africa for the past 3 months; so it was hard to leave and come to India, a place that I had never felt a personal desire to visit or serve. Then, we found out that our ministry was with homes for abandoned special needs children . . . obviously valuable ministry but not my passion or an area that I have any particular strength or training. As a result, my attitude was poor coming into my first few days here. I was going through the motions, but my heart wasn’t in it and I knew it.
So I decided to take it to the Lord and in my quiet time the other morning I prayed for renewed strength & focus so that I can benefit the ministries in these remaining 4 countries with the same eagerness and drive as I have in previous months. Later that day I received an e-mail from my sister, Kelly, which was an answer to that prayer.
The words of my little sister served as a needed reminder to me that I am not just here on my own because of God’s calling on my life. Yes, I am doing what He purposed for me to do I am here because I was willing to step out and follow his direction, but I could not be here without all of those that partnered with me through prayer and financial support. So, I am also out here on behalf of all of you. I am serving as a representative of those that are partnering with me . . . so it makes perfect sense that I would be placed in a ministry that is the true heart of one of my strongest and most faithful supporters.
I will continue to move forward in this journey with this renewed spirit and understanding that I am serving where I am called on behalf of all of you. This month is for you sis!
