Well, I’m typing this blog as I am flying over the ocean on my way to the Dominican Republic (Friday, 1/13). I have no idea how long it will be before I am able to actually post this blog, but I wanted to get my thoughts down in this blog while they were still fresh from Launch.
I left my loved ones and my home on Tuesday and headed to Florida for my World Race Launch. These past few days have been an emotional and spiritual roller coaster of sorts as my squad attempted to prepare for separation from what we know and are comfortable with in order to follow what the Lord has laid out for us in the coming months. As I processed through the first two days I found myself in a two-fold cycle of Brokenness and Anxiety followed by Assurance from the Lord.
First, I experienced brokenness for those that I am leaving behind at home. I already miss them so much and was filled with sadness upon thinking about the time and experiences that we will miss sharing in the coming year. Then my brokenness developed into anxiety about how they will all do without me, the obstacles that they will face, and my ability to make it through without their daily influence in my life.
Second, I experienced brokenness for those that I will meet and serve in the coming months. I know that I will encounter people with experiences far beyond anything that I have ever been exposed to and needs far beyond what I can even imagine. This again developed into anxiety about my ability to serve them adequately and my ability to adapt to various circumstances and challenges that we will undoubtedly face.
Then on Wednesday night during an incredibly powerful time of group worship, as I prayed to the Lord over these things, He calmed my soul with these words . . .”I’ve got this!” He spoke this into my soul as clearly as anything I have ever known. For the first time in month I was able to be still in the presence of the Lord and just feel his calm over me.
So as I head to the first country on this journey I am at peace knowing that “He’s got this,” and that everyone at home will be okay, I will be okay, and my ministry will be blessed according to his will because I know that I am following His plan for me in this season in my life. Praise the Lord for this gift of Peace!
I love all of you very much and greatly appreciate the continuous prayers and support. I hope to be able to post this and to provide additional updates soon.
