As this year comes to a close I want to reflect on the
changes that I have been through.
At the start of the year I was at a winter camp for young
adults, at this camp I received a phone call about getting an interview for a
job that I really wanted (a medical assistant at a hospital close to home).
This is what I had been working towards for over 2 years and now I had a chance
at making real money, being able to get a new car, and think about leaving my
parent’s house. By the middle of January I had gotten the job and by February I
started working.
There was something else that happened at this camp. I
realized that I need to start doing something with the call that God lead me to
(ministry). I started to map out a study group for the girls in my church.
Things were going great for me in February, I had what I thought
as the perfect job, I was starting a ministry for teen girls for my church, and
I was a game director for Awana. By the end of the month though is when things
got bad. I lost my perfect job; not only lost it, but was fired. I was not in
school making straight A’s anymore; I was failing at a job I loved.
As I drove home from my last day at that job, I question what
God was doing with me. I longed not to even make it home, but as I cried in my
car, God told me that I was making this job my career and He had called me to
more. I needed to start my ministry now, and not wait any longer. God was
telling me that He wanted me to do what was important to Him now and not wait
until I had it all together.
A few weeks passed by and I still had no idea what I was supposed
to do with my life, I was as confused as ever. One night, though, I got a call
from a good friend and told him how I was feeling. He told me I should check
out a website; this website would eventually lead me to the World Race, but
only after hours of looking. It was not this night that I realized this is what
God was asking of me, but it was shortly after that. I applied and was accepted;
now it was about the work to get the money I needed to survive a year without a
real job.
Once I was set for the World Race I had to find a job to
help pay my bills. This came in May. When I was in the local grocery store, the
manger, who I worked under a few months earlier at the store, asked me to come
back. I took my job back, knowing this was most likely the best thing I could
get, since my last job was asked to leave from, and most people in Michigan are
not working. This was hard for me, I was so happy to quit the last time,
because a manger had been harassing me, and making my days there a living hell,
and most days had me crying on the way home. Just to be in the store again made
me feel horrible, but after a weeks and telling myself that she was not there
nor would ever come back I was over my anxiety.
In May I also went to a training camp for the World Race,
at this camp I learned a lot about myself, including that I was not ready to
leave yet.
In August as I watch my former squad leave without me
there was heartache knowing that I would not be with them, and as I watched
their ministry, I was so upset that I was still here doing the same thing.
I went back to the training camp in October, and this
time I learned that I still had issues with forgiving a young person who hurt
me sexually, and I have so much to teach others about the issues I have dealt
with.
As I prepare to leave in a few days time, I ask you to partner
with me. I have no idea how God will use me in the next year, but I know God
will use me to touch others with the passion and glory that He has touched my
life with.
First I need you to pray with me that I am used in a way
that fulfills my ministry in life, for health, for team unity, and for God’s
will.
Second I need finical support – this can be as small as
$10, or even monthly support.
