Last week all of iSquad came together for month 2 debrief. We stayed at an amazing travelers inn in Nelspruit, South Africa. This was a time for each team to meet with our squad leaders and squad coaches to talk about our first two months of ministry and realign as a team. We also met as team leaders, spent time in worship, celebrated several birthdays, and went on a killer safari. It was so needed. I was able to spend some quality time with people on our squad as well as the Lord. Thursday night, our squad did communion together. It’s become somewhat of a ritual for our squad. Following communion, the Lord pointed out an area in my life that needs to change. In that, I felt led to share a prayer I wrote out last night in Nelspruit while spending time with Jesus. It’s open and raw but it’s where I am right now. Please be praying for me in this area.
My prayer from 11/1/12
Hi Dad. I just need to start out by apologizing. Apologizing for judging others. Mostly for not apologizing and recognizing my sins more. I tend to forget to repent. I lean towards what I want or need instead of becoming clean before you. I recognize other’s sins so much easier than my own. I don’t want to be that way anymore. You’ve given me SO much grace for my past, yet I forget to recall that I need it everyday. I have to recognize it even though it was already forgiven. I’m so sorry Papa. As scary as it is to ask please begin to show me daily what I do to sin against you. Please be gentle. I know it will be hard to recognize. I hate that I do anything that isn’t please to you. Help me to turn away from anything that isn’t what you want for me. I’m sorry for all my sins. I love you so much. Amen.
