Since I was a little girl, I’ve dreamt of the day I would meet my husband. The world told me that life would be complete and everything would be ok once I found the man of my dreams. As a result, I searched for my happiness in a man. I believed that I wouldn’t feel complete until I found him. I did whatever I could to keep the men I dated. This lead to so many wounds and hurts. I believed I wasn’t good enough or I was too much. Thankfully God pulled me out of that and showed me that He is the one who completes me. He is the one who brings joy and peace. A man can’t fix me or sustain me. Only God can. Over and over God has taught me that…even on the race. The other night I came across a prayer I found a year ago on a blog called The Single Woman. It spoke so much to me all over again. I hope it helps another single woman see that through everything, God is working it all out for our good.
Dear God,
Thank you for not bringing me that guy that I asked you for all those years ago or the one from 2005 or ’07 or the one from that REALLY crazy request last month.
Thank you for loving me enough to NOT answer my prayers.
Thank you for teaching me that flying solo can create the strongest wings…and that being a brave single girl is a beautiful thing.
Thank you for reminding me through my earthly father what a protective covering should REALLY be…and unclouding my vision when I am blind and can’t seem to see what’s not good for me.
Thank you for showing me when I’m settling…and when I ignore you, thank you for meddling.
Thank you for sending me guys who didn’t love me enough…to remind me of what I’m worthy of. Thank you for standing back and allowing me to make my own mistakes and to find my own way. And when I crashed and burned because it was the only way to REALLY learn, thanks for not saying “I told you so.”
Thank you for holding my hand, even if I can’t feel it…for collecting the pieces of my broken heart, when I’m powerless to heal it…
For being my strength, when I can’t be it…For guiding my path when it’s dark and I can’t see it.
Most of all, thank you for loving me enough to keep me to yourself a little longer…and for using my weakness to make others stronger.
I love you. Amen
The world tries to tell us that being 25 and single isn’t ok. It screams that happiness is finding a man and settling down. I’m so grateful that God has shown me otherwise. I’m so thankful that God is keeping me to himself a little longer to make me into the woman he wants me to be. I don’t want to be “normal”. I want to chase after Jesus with everything I have and do exactly what he tells me even if that means flying solo with Him for a while longer.
