Today as I sit snowed in my little apartment in Concord, North Carolina I can’t help but daydream about India…
I barely slept those nights from all the mosquito bites I had. Each morning I woke up to the blaring sounds of traffic and feeling completely sticky. The electricity was always out at that time which meant no fans. 11 people crammed into one small apartment was less than ideal and the beds were far from comfortable.
Our ministry was serving at a special needs children’s home and for my team that was not what we had wanted. We wanted to be out in the village. We knew big things were going to happen in the villages that month. To say our team dynamic was off would be an understatement…it was bad.
Most days we spent part of the day with the kids and the other half working on projects that SCH wanted us to complete. Being with the kids was exhausting. They demanded our attention. It was obvious we weren’t going to get through the month without the help of God.
But then there were my kids.
Nicky loves music. Each time I was with him, we would play Elevation Worship or Taylor Swift and he would smile and laugh! I got to take him to the Ocean for the first time and I will NEVER forget the joy he had as the waves washed over him.
Gabe has such potential. He is so smart and loving. Ben instantly fell in love with him.
Kavya was our little mom. She was always pretending to clean and loved to snuggle with Jamie.
Jackie is just a pistol. I love her spunk.
There were so many other kids I feel in love with too.
There were days I wished India was over. But when the end of the month came, I dreaded the thought of not seeing my kids. Every day since I left India, I’ve thought of them. I’ve wanted to have dance parties with them. I’ve wanted to teach them things and hug them. God taught me so much about his love for me through those kids. He taught me to love unconditional and with my whole heart.
Most days, I would take the sleepless nights and sweaty mornings. I’ll take the loud traffic and monkey outside of my apartment. I’ll take all that month meant if that means I get to see my kids again.
Until now, I’ve been waiting for the door to open for me to go back. When I got home, I thought I was supposed to go back for good. God has shown me though that isn’t the case. I have an amazing life here in North Carolina and He has big plans for me here. Part of those plans include praying for my kids, bringing awareness to the way kids with disabilities are treated outside of the US, and going to Sarah’s Covenant Home for short term trips.
I’m SO excited to tell you I’m going back in less than 6 months. August 11th-21st I will be going to SCH with a few of the people from iSquad!! I cannot wait to see what God has in store for this trip. If you’d like to play a part in sending me back to India, please email me. My trip will cost around $2300 with the first $2000 being due May 11th.
