Sometimes I can allow my head to get ahead of my heart. I may have doubts here and there, but I do know that I have confidence in ALL that He says that I am. Knowing that He is the main character in every story. Including mine.
A couple weeks ago I was pulled into the kitchen with my squad leader, Madie, as she asked if we could talk earlier that evening. When you get asked to have a one-on-one with leadership you’re not sure what to expect.
Her and I have a wonderful friendship and I’m so glad that the Lord gave her to XSquad. She is full of wisdom and I have looked up to her since day one. We sat in the kitchen and she says to me,
“Kricket, I have been able to watch you grow over the last couple of months and it has been absolutely beautiful. It doesn’t matter what room you walk into, your presence lights it up.”
I was humbled by her kind words.
“We, as leadership, would love to ask if you would be a team leader next month?”
My heart was exploding with excitement and honor as I answered with “yes!”
As days went on and I began to process the idea of becoming a team leader the enemy tried to steal my joy. I started having doubts of “How is it that I was chosen to be a team leader.” “You can’t be responsible to this team.” “Can I really do this?” As these thoughts flooded my mind I knew that I had to bring them to the light. I sat down with my dear teammate and friend, Devon, I told her all the fears that were consuming me. There is something good that always comes when you bring doubts to the light and never letting the enemy win. Devon shared encouragement over me and prayed for just what my heart was needing. During this time the Lord reminded me that I am chosen, I am a light of His presence, and believing that I have been made for such a time as this.
I sat with Madie over the next couple of days and went through some training. My teachable heart was so anxious to learn more and listen to all that she wanted to share in calling me higher for the kingdom. I pray that I will always lead by seeking God’s direction first, to lead with humility, compassion, kindness and to always have a yes for God in my heart.
I am blessed to have the opportunity to learn this role. The girls of Team Atlas and Team Paradosis will join together and serve in Penang, Malaysia and will be serving with LUMA (Lighting Up Media and the Arts) for the month of November.
God is good. And He is at work.
Thank you for your continued love and prayers.
Hugs,
Kristen
