What comes after the Race? When are you going to get a job? Are you going to go back to school? Where are you gonna live? What is your plan for your future? Those questions are triggers for my defense button. I know very few people my age that know how to answer those question. I can tell you right now, I DO NOT! This is a scary realization; not knowing where your life is heading.
So, for the last leg of my race I am quarantined with my squad. It has come to my attention that I don’t have much time left. It is a very good thing that I don’t stress easily or get emotional or I’d be in trouble cause my future after the race is a big, fat question mark.
Here is all the clarity have to offer you; the LORD is good. Whenever I loose my cool and want to schedule and plan I am quickly reminded that I am not in the drivers seat. Funny thing about using a car analogy is I get car sick. My way of not getting sick; spending time in His word. There is such a peace that comes over me when I think of those questions when I am in constant communication with Him. Here are some things that He has shown me while stuck in quarantine:
- Rest is a gift. Rest means to pause, breath or be at ease. It refreshes the body and gives us the energy to we need to honor God and to love others. I personally like to feel like I have to accomplish at least one thing during the day, be doing something, anything. I have learned that I need to rest in the LORD; be intentional to establish healthy boundaries with myself and with others.
- To love is to choose. Love is patient, kind, slow to anger, love never leaves or forsakes (1 Corinthians 13). God is love (1 John 4) I have to choose everyday to love people; even people that I don’t agree with. This kind of love is only possible with God.
- Sometimes things don’t turn out how I plan or want; example: 2020. My key word for this year is endurance. This year I have experienced trials, a lot of disappointment, and many setbacks. Jesus joyfully endured the cross (Hebrews 12:2), surely I can endure this year of craziness.
Faith is my answer to all these questions. I have faith the the LORD who feeds the birds and clothes the flowers will take care of me. That even though right now, in this moment, I have no idea what comes next I will follow God at the drop of a dime.
