staring at the blinking cursor for about 5 minutes before giving up and
closing the lid of my laptop. So, in large contrast to my previous
blog postings, brevity is a guarantee.
hysterical, and bizarre situations. I’m sure there will be PLENTY to
laugh at, including myself. We all love Jesus. We’re joyful. As a
result, laughing is kind of a guarantee…
I expect to experience community.
I’m so excited to be surrounded by brothers and sisters who have
similar hearts to serve. Despite how different I know we will all be,
we have the most amazing Unifier who will serve to draw us together in
supernatural ways. Our surroundings will demand vulnerability within
our teams and sacrificing control in everything. Should be
interesting…
I expect to be without escape.
This one might confuse you. Allow me a brief second to explain. When I
get overwhelmed, abnormally introverted, or really sad, I prefer to be TOTALLY alone. I don’t want to talk about it. So? I split.
It’s actually quite an impressive disappearing act. My friends never
worry anymore, knowing that I’ll show up after I’ve had my minute to
process. The fact that just taking off for a stroll in Mozambique or
going M.I.A. in Thailand isn’t an option…slightly stresses me out. I
can laugh about it now, but I’m painfully aware of the difficulty and
sacrifice that this will require next year. There’s no escaping. I’ll
have to process in a room full of people. This sounds like
punishment…but I love how something can go from our biggest struggle to our greatest blessing in the hands of the Lord.
I expect to GIVE THANKS.
of friends and have been blessed by a supportive church family and
MARVELOUS parents. When I’m in Peru, I’m famous for not missing any
aspect of my life back home (except sweet tea…). I’m just too focused
on enjoying my limited time with those kiddos and the work before me.
Eleven months away from my friends and family though will certainly
help me to develop a sense of appreciation. Oddly enough, I really look
forward to missing them and giving thanks for them while I’m gone.
So, now that I just decided to sit down and writing I’m realizing I
have more expectations than I originally anticipated…. I’ll spare you
and only list one more.
I expect His Divine Presence. (Insert large smile here)
This is where my blinking cursor started. Words really fail me when I
think about all that He will do next year. He will reveal Himself. He
will break us, mold us, empower us, comfort us, humble us, unite us,
form us, love us, guide us….wow. I’ve really tried to stop guessing
what else…All I know is that it will be AMAZING and none of us will
ever be the same.
I expect next year will be hard. It will be packed with the most
challenging and humbling experiences of my life. I start to question my
sanity when I say that I’m excited about all of this. I’m SO nervous,
humbled, and nauseous when I think about what next year holds, but I’m
comforted by the fact that His love never fails. It’s ALL for His
glory, so I’m up for anything. May His name be PRAISED!!
~Psalm 113:3~
