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If Grace be such, if it be so large, so wide, depths I cannot sound..
Then O let me be holy. O let me serve Him. God has been speaking to me alot about why He wants me going on the race. It is not because.. .. of the adventure. .. I get to go to 11 countries. .. of the community. .. I need to grow or figure out who God is. ( I already know my Father ) while these are all great things, and even perks… I am going for 2 reasons. 1.People – There are broken people that Christ has MADE me to have compassion for. I will find them. There are people that Christ has DIED for, but still don't even know. I will tell them. 2. Future – The World Race is just a very very small step for me. This is just the beginning. A little about my identity… Jesus saved me. That sentence says it all. But I want to go into a little more depth. But now. I have been made new. I choose not to do those things anymore.. not because I feel like God has given me a list of do's and don't's.. and that if I do a don't that God will disown me ….. and not because I feel like if I do a do that I will "show" myself worthy of His love. I choose not to do those things anymore because I love Jesus. I am head over heels for Him. He is all I see. He is all I want. I want to be holy, just like my Maker. If I choose to do the very things that He has saved me from… that is crucifying Christ all over again. But at that previous time, when you had not come to be acquainted with {and} understand {and} know the true God, you [Gentiles] were in bondage to gods who by their very nature could not be gods at all [gods that really did not exist]. Now, however, that you have come to be acquainted with {and} understand {and} know [the true] God, or rather to be understood {and} known by God, how can you turn back again to the weak and beggarly {and} worthless elementary things [of all religions before Christ came], whose slaves you once more want to become? Galatians 4:8-9 There would be no difference between me and the world. and how am I to be a LIGHT if I am blending in with the darkness? I have come as a Light into the world, so that whoever believes in me[whoever cleaves to and trusts in and relies on Me] may not continue to live in darkness. John 12:46 How am I to be firm and stable in my witness, whenever the very thing I would be doing is the very reason Christ died for me, the very thing I was drowning in whenever God so mercifully pulled me out. because i was drowning. i was lost. i was confused and pursuaded by everyone around me. i was lonely and broken. i was empty and numb. i was whoever i was around. i was happy whenever i needed to be. i was sad even more. i was defined by love that only people could give… but never gave. i was only as good as the respect that I got …but not anymore. In Him was Life, and the Life was the Light of men. John 1:4 my chains… not chains that make me feel like i have a do's and don't list.. not chains that control me to make me think i have to be a certain way or do a certain thing… my chains have been broken. my chains are gone. and now I am free. and not a cheesy puffed up freedom. and not just a word that would fall under a "christian witnessing lingo" category. but I am really. really. free. By ransom of His own life he liberated us from the enemies that hold the human race in bondage.. sin, death, and satan, making us now free to serve. i KNOW who i am in Christ… even if I only know a small part of that now. I KNOW the freedom that Christ has given me.. even if I've only just begun to see it. I KNOW the truth that is set before me.. even though I'm learning more and more of it everyday. I KNOW that i have a Husband who is beyond crazyyy about me i was a slave. a slave to sin. a slave to myself. a slave to this world.
But thanks be to God, that you who were once slaves of sin have become obedient from the heart to the standard of teaching to which you were committed, and, having been set free from sin, have become slaves of righteousness. (Romans 6:17-18)
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