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God so beautifully pursued me, until i finally
surrendered.
God still pursues me, even when i don’t feel like
surrendering. 
and He is relentless. And I am eternally grateful.
 
A little over a year ago, God began to dramatically reshape
my life to fit His vision.
A little after that I became obsessed with what I
thought God owed me, what he should do for me, how he should bless me. I mean ..I decided to obey Him sooo.. he
should make my life what I want it to be…. Right?!    WRONG!!
 
What if what God wants for my life, isn’t what I want? How
is that gonna work?
So I became fearful. I thought I knew best for myself, and I
wanted to make sure I had control over my life. I was slowly realizing that GOD
is not here to be a part of MY life, to stay on the sidelines until I call for
help, to provide me with the American dream lifestyle that I thought He was
here to help me achieve. And that scared
me.

I had a life plan for myself. It was perfectly mapped out. Graduate
highschool. Graduate college. Get married by 20. ( I am now almost 21). Become
a teacher. Have an adorable house. Have kids by 23. Be a cute little soccer mom
and master the art of cooking.

       God had
different plans.

God so mercifully and gently revealed to me that He is here
so that I can be a part of HIS plan/life. My life is not my own. I was bought
with a price. I was not made to live selfishly under His care. I was made to
live RADICALLY with Him and in His authority. “New things I now declare” (Isaiah 42:9)

God has saved me from settling for a life of complacency and
normalcy, the life I was so determined to have.

Whether I live or whether I die, I am the Lord’s. It is time
to die to myself, life, plans, so I can live for Him. I am ready to die to
myself so that I can see the Jesus who dwells in every orphan, homeless, aids
victim, prisoner, stranger, widow, abused, trafficked child..
 
 

There is a song that says.. “To finally let go of all my
plans, these earthly kingdoms built of sand”. So I let go. And I have to let go
again. And again. And again. It is a constant process of giving it all to the
Lord.

I choose You Jesus,

            Not because
I am worthy, or capable

But because YOU chose ME
 
 
…free at last, I surrender all I am..