It is becoming more obvious to me how God's will differs from my will for my life. If you had asked me a year ago what I would be doing right now, I most likely would have responded with "getting ready to be a missionary." But in my mind I was going to have a one way ticket to Johannesburg, South Africa. The fact that you're reading this blog proves that God had different plans. For those of you that do not know me well, South Africa is the place where God completely destroyed my life for his Glory. He took me on a mission trip for the first time in 2009 and my life has never been the same. Becuase of the renovation God did in my life there, it is safe to say that I have a serious attachment to South Africa. Tomorrow morning a team from my church is San Antonio will board a plane for Joburg, This is the first time in 4 years that I will not be joining them….theres a combo platter of emotions flowing out of me…
A sweet child in a South African squatter camp, smiling becuase his belly is full of Viennas (hot dogs)
Our Team in 2011 Sharing 1 chicken for our meal….Red Bowl style
Pastor Willie Dengler (the leader of the ministry we work with)Praying with Prisoners:
Prison Ministry(God using men behind bars to teach me how to live in Freedom!)
I am confident that I am living out God's will for my life, not mine. At the same time, I am sad to not be returning to my beloved South Africa, and I think its okay for me to feel that way. This place is where God revealed to me the importance of abandoning everything I know to chase whole-heartedly after Him. I desire to live every single day like I am in a South African prison, sharing the love of Jesus and how he has completely rescued me. I hope I will begin to do that before I even reach the starting line for this race. I am called to love like Christ loves me, and He has placed in front of me plenty of ways to do that in the past couple of days(I'll elaborate more on that later, I could write a novel). I am ecstatic about the opportunity to run around this earth and share the Good news of God's love… I really am! It is not up to me to worry about who will take care of the people in South Africa, God's got it. He is in control, Who am I to question his mighty power? Every day I get on the world race website to read recent blogs from current racers. As I read these earth-shattering stories, my heart bursts with Joy & Priase to be able to join in this Kindgom building. But I am only human, & my flesh conflicts with my heart on a daily basis.
I am convinced that there is nothing that can ever separate me from God. Not life, or death; not an angel or demon, not my fears for today or my worries for tomorrow-not even the powers of hell can separate me from God's love! (Romans 8:38)
Thanks for tuning in,
KC
