When my teammates and squad-mates ask how its going, my typical response is that I am loving every minute.
For the most part this is very true. I have seem some breath taking views of God’s masterpieces, climbed the steepest hill in Malaysia to catch those views.
(Penang Hill)
eaten delicious cultural food,
had powerful moments in prayer on the rooftop of our hostel,
sang praises to the heavens with my team,
laughed till it hurts,
cried for the broken,
and rejoiced in the ways God is moving in Malaysia.
Even so, saying that I have loved every minute is not completely accurate.
There have been moments of doubt
fear
insecurity
timidity
comparison
frustration.
These are easily subdued by spending time alone with my Daddy and in his rich word. But I cannot honestly say that I have loved every minute. Living with 13 other people is so much fun. There is always someone to talk with, laugh with, dance around with, etc etc.
Then there are the moments when you just want to be alone, or have the freedom to walk to the grocery store on your own. I would love to be able to put on my tennis shoes, grab my ipod and go for a run with the Lord and no one else. Living in community is all about preferring others and respecting the fact that we are all in this together. I have really struggled with sacrificing my independence, as well as communicating my true feelings with my team. Then He convicts me to have High Consideration.
Community is a Beautiful Mess.
We are all adults, we all managed our lives before we came into this family. God has orchestrated these days and I am so thankful for that. I constantly rejoice in the fact that every single day is spent working in Him, even if I never leave the hostel, I am serving the Lord by preferring and considering the desires of my brothers and sisters.
“In view of all of this, make every effort to respond to God’s promises. Supplement your faith with a generous provision of moral excellence, and moral excellence with knowledge, and knowledge with self-control, and self-control with patient endurance, and patient endurance with godliness, and godliness with brotherly affection, and brotherly affection with love for everyone. the more you grow like this, the more productive and useful you will be in your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ.” – 2 Peter 1:5-8
Thank you so much for all of your prayers, I can feel them and see God bringing them to life.
Love,
KC
