This is going to be hard for me. To make matters worse, I am a procrastinator to the MAX. It is really difficult for me to share what I am feeling and going through with other people. It has been something I have struggled with much of my life. I really don't like being vulnerable and uncovering my heart for all to see. So bear with me as I ease my way into this public journaling. I am going to open my heart to the world and trust God.
Since I have been accepted to be a part of this journey and prayed over the decision, it has become very clear to me that this is what I am suppose to do. I have found that it hasn't been an easy journey thus far. It seems like just when I get excited or think that I am on track, doubt creeps back in. Its been an emotional rollercoaster to say the least. There is going to be a great battle in my mind over this next year but I know that God and I will win because we make a great team and have been making good progress so far. The saying that "the truth shall set you free" really is true. When you are fighting lies and doubts in your mind the only way to free your mind is to use truth to battle those stinky little lies.
Honestly, I feel as if I barely have time to think. I have been so overwhelmed with teaching full time and trying to be the best teacher I can be….and to beginning to prepare for this life changing journey. There really isn't enough time in a day. Its been one tough balancing act that I have yet to master. But, don't you worry I am the little engine that CAN and the energizer bunny all in one. I keep pressing onward pushing hindrances out of my way and God is going to help me pull through, He always does.
So I am ready. Ready for this life-changing journey. Ready for this next chapter in my story. God knows the ending already, but I am glad that I don't because I get to watch it unfold. Its not always a pretty, happy story but it is intricately designed, beautifully designed and I KNOW it has a wonderful, the most amazing, BEST HAPPILY EVER AFTER ending I could ever imagine.
Hold on tight. Things on my journey might get crazy, but it will be a beautiful mess if you look at it with open eyes and an open heart. Stay tuned, I am a work in progress.
