If only you knew how many times I tried writing a blog entry….I have been trying since January. I feel as if I have NOTHING profound to say. I honestly feel like I've got NOTHING to share. SO HERE GOES NOTHING…
I am excited. I am pumped for this next journey to begin. I can't stop thinking about how awesome it will be to be surrounded by all these encouraging people for a whole year!!! I am excited to see God move in BIG ways, MIRACULOUS ways to teach me, mold me, break me, and lead me.
I am stressed out to the max. I feel as if I have a million things to do and there is no possible way that I am going to be able to get it all done. Its a never-ending list. I seem to be overloaded with things I am suppose to remember, or think about, or decide but and I try to keep up, but it just burns me out.
I am tried. I try to get my sleep. Sleep is good. Sleep comes easily but ends too quickly. SO MUCH to do, so little time.
I am nervous. There are few things I am worried about with me going on this journey. To name one: furry spiders. I don't mind spiders but I don't think spiders should be bigger than a quarter and they really shouldn't have fur…. I mean the other spiders seem to deal with life without the coat, and they must be overdressed in these tropical climates. I am also nervous about other things like a job with health insurance when I return. Dealing with Medical issues out on the field.
I am trusting God more than ever before in my life and stand in awe at his faithfulness and provision which I know is only going to continue to grow.
I am praying for provision, protection, direction, miracles, an out pouring of Christ's love, for a revival, that we reach the unreached and loving those who believe they are not loved.
I am learning to define myself in Christ, that I am a beautiful creation, deserving of love.
I am intrigued about the countries I will be traveling to and their culture.
I am loving the people I haven’t even met yet that will touch my heart, and leave their footprints long after we go our separate ways.
I am finding that I serve an amazing God whose love for me I will NEVER comprehend.
I am not a perfect girl, my hair is never in place, I spill things……a lot, I am VERY clumsy, sometimes I have a broken heart, my sisters and I sometimes fight, and there are some days when nothing goes right, but when I think about it and take a step back…. I can see the love and joy in my life and know that through all of my imperfections,
God still LOVES me.
And I've learned that SOMETHING can come from what you think is NOTHING. You just don't always see it. God can make that happen.
