As I am sitting in this little coffee shop on this beautiful fall day, I am reflecting on this past week and the many ways that God has been showing up in my life. I have been taping into a different side of my brain recently, thanks to some of our lovely CGA mentors pushing us. I have been pushing the boundaries of my creative side and learning to express myself in new ways and connect with God in new ways. It has been so good for my soul.
I have started writing in my journal in the morning for a couple pages, raw, real, not worrying if my granddaughter is going to read it when I die. I am getting to the deep depths, to the innermost parts of me, doing some Soul Work. There is such a freedom when you release the need for perfection in your journal, when you allow yourself to create. I always thought and used the excuse that I am not creative, but the truth is, The Creator CREATED us, therefore we must have some creativity innately in us; it just looks different for everyone. I have also been gluing my life in my journal, and painting a raw picture via paints, scraps, “trash” and writing in my journal.
The other day I was realizing that I have been so busy tending to the needs of others that I have been ignoring my soul and my soul needs. I decided to take a day for myself. I went for a walk/ jog/ run. This turned into a skip, gallop, and leap, which turned into me doing ballet in the middle of the street. I was doing grand jetes’ in the middle of the street, and then I started twirling and spinning. Ahhh good good good for my soul and brought me so much joy.
Later that evening I decided to paint… for those of you who don’t know, I don’t paint. Little by little I began putting colors on the page. I didn’t know what I was making or what it was going to turn into but slowly but surely the colors began turning into a picture. As I was thinking about this picture made from a swirl of colors I realized Jesus was exploding off the page. As I was painting and mixing my water colors together, new colors were emerging and I began to see God in a whole new light than I ever have before. He has so many colors, more than we could ever fathom. He has so many characteristics, more than I could ever grasp. With each stroke of the brush it was like he was popping odd the page at me, jumping out at my heart and my soul saying HERE I AM, just sit and rest in my beauty. And so I did.
I want to challenge you to do the things that you recognize brings you so much JOY and connect you to the Lord. He made us so uniquely and gave us different passions for a reason, tap into that. When you journal, forget about being perfect, let a streamline of thoughts flow and let your heart get to the places it needs to get to without worrying who will read it in 5, 10, 15, 20, 100 years. That journal is for your heart, your soul and a tool that God uses to allow you to discover, heal, process and grow. I also want to push you to challenge yourself in an area that you normally don’t tap into. Create if you never create, write if you never write, dance if you’ve never danced, you might just learn something’s about yourself and about God that you never knew before.
love love love love love you all!
