quick cause I was about to burst, and then follow the signs to baggage
claim. I’m in Baltimore. I saw our mall from my window as we landed.
I hear a commotion of people and start running. It’s my family! Surreal.
That night was an extreme whirlwind of emotions. I was so happy. I was
so stunned to be surrounded by what once was normal. When I got to my house, I just sat in Ben’s lap wrapped in his arms and sobbed for a good
while. I didn’t even know why I was sobbing, but I was. Now I think it
was just everything. So much going on, such a big transition, a combo of grieving having to leave that family mixed with the
joy of seeing this one. Grieving my life on the race, and the joy
of my life here. Taking it all in – my sisters 9 months pregnant due
any day, my other sister’s life in Haiti, my best friend’s engaged, I just got ENGAGED! And things from the race
that just kept flashing through my mind, like African hospitals and our
kids faces in Budaka… things that maybe I couldn’t take in at the time
and really process through what I was a part of, what I was seeing. The
hurt of the world. As much as I tried to not be overwhelmed, I was and
it came out here in Ben’s arms. I was crying out of pain, I was crying
out of joy, I was crying with every emotion felt that I think the human
heart can experience.
heard Him saying ‘prepare yourself, Kris. These people, these things happening, this place… they’re all gifts, but
this is not your Home.’ And the last few weeks, I’ve thought
continuously on that. And felt that. It is so good to be back here, but
this is not my Home. At my last feedback night Angela told me about
perseverance and patience and how God has grown those in me for more
than just the race. I am starting to see and feel now just what that
really means. It takes a great measure of perseverance for a citizen of
Heaven to live in this world. Heaven is Home. And when I say I’ve felt
that the past few weeks, I mean just that. I have been so happy with
being back and getting engaged! Such exciting things. But nothing
satisfies like the moments that I’ve experienced (wherever it may be) in
the presence of the Lord and truly feeling at His feet before His
throne. Because where His throne is, there is my Home.
