I’m writing a blog woohooo. It’s been awhile.
It’s November and this is my last month in Guatemala. Wow. Where has the time gone. At the same time it feels like i’ve been here for a year. My life in the US feels like a distant memory.
I walk down the streets and almost feel like a local, the only thing keeping me from feeling completely Guatemalan are the reminders that they shout out calling me a gringa (white girl).
I know how to use the public transportation and I ride on the roofs of busses like i’ve been doing it since I was 5. I also have finally figured out how to not get ripped off by the bus drivers. #pro
I have developed a love for beans like never before and I eat them all the time. You can even buy them refried, in a bag, in the grocery stores. It’s awesome. Especially on corn tortillas. I’m pretty positive I am starting to smell like a corn tortilla. I’ve never eaten so much of one thing in my life.
I’ve also learned how to trust Jesus. I’m still learning and growing but that has been a huge thing I’ve been walking through. Everything kind of comes back to my trust in Him. In His faithfulness, in His protection, in His sovereignty.
So much of life here is unknown and unpredictable. Everyday is different. Ministry, relationships, and emotions to name a few.
One thing that literally never changes is Jesus and His love and care for me. So much of what I’m learning is that Jesus is so so in love with me. He cares more about me than any human experience I’ve ever had. He wants me to fall so hard in love with him. I’m learning to fall but I’ve also learned it takes so much trust to fall. Its a process and I’m walking in that.
I’m also learning to not limit God on my limited knowledge and experience. He is SO much bigger than the boxes I’ve put Him. I’ve realized i’ve unknowingly limited Him in my mind and I’m learning to not do that anymore. I’m learning to let Him completely blow my mind, and sweep me off my feet.
Something I’m also learning, is that learning is so uncomfortable. Learning is constantly swallowing my pride and being teachable. I hate not knowing what I’m doing and I really have no clue what I’m doing the majority of the time. God new that though and he has a funny way of helping me grow.
Some days I wake up and I just want to be home. I want to be with my family and not have any responsibility or ministry. In those moments and so many others is when I turn to Jesus and I say I literally can’t do this. And thats when He so lovingly comes in and sends strength and grace. He gives me a new passion and desire and I move forward. Jesus has showed me so much of His heart here. His love for me and His children is so beautiful.
Guatemala has been such a growth experience. My time here has been so beautiful and I’ve been so blessed. I love being here and I love the journey Jesus is taking me on. Prayers would be so appreciated for me and my team! We’re trying to end our time here in Guate stronger than we started. 🙂
Thanks for reading !!
