6:30am and little brown eyes are staring at me, somehow I ended up on the floor instead of my sleeping pad. It is a new day and I have lots of little ones waiting for me to get up and be full of energy and hugs.
This month I am living in a kid’s home. The kids all come from bad backgrounds and bad living situations. I live with 19 kids, 6 teammates, 1 squad leader, and 2 house parents. Never a dull moment.
I am exhausted, not a bitter, resentful exhausted but a good, fulfilling, beautiful exhausted.
Ministry is all day everyday- 6:30am-11pm and almost every minute of the day involves holding, hugging, playing, tickling and loving kids.
I love these kids so much. Each one of these kids are so uniquely themselves.
Likes and dislikes, passions and interests. Its amazing how quickly connections form and how much I started caring for these children I just met. I want good for them and I so badly want them to know and experience Jesus. I want them to know in their hearts that their situation is not hopeless, that their Father has plans for them and that they are good.
These kids have done a number on my heart and taught me how to live more selflessly- to be a child again and to relearn how to know God as my father. Not to just know that God is my father but to have that information travel from my head to my heart, to live differently because I have that knowledge and understanding.
I am relearning how to love people solely because they are God’s creation- not because they have anything to give me. Pure, unadulterated, unselfish love. You exist. You were created by God. I love you. Sounds sappy but its a revelation I’ve had and its so true.
Another revelation that dawned on me- I love these kids so much, but the Lord loves them more than I ever could. Me and my team will be leaving them but they still have the most incredible source of love- Jesus.
My love for them has made me see God’s love for myself so much better. It makes me think of how much the Lord loves me, How much he cares about me and how much He wants good for me.
Anyways, lots of stuff going on in my head and in my heart.
Malaysia has brought lots of laughs, lots of Indian food, and lots of sweat.
I’ve loved it more than words can say. I’m leaving soon and it makes me sad to think that this season is ending- but that means a new one is beginning. The Lord has so much more to come, He loves giving good things to His children 🙂
March 4th I leave for Botswana, Africa. Which is my final country. That blows my mind. CRAZZYY. 3 months and I am coming home. Doesn’t seem possible. The Lord keeps bringing me through so much and his faithfulness always astounds me.
Thank you for reading !!!!!!!
p.s Pictures of the kids are not allowed on to be posted, so unfortunately you will not be able to see their beautiful faces.
