I stood far from the edge, I figured as long as I didn’t look the easier it would be. Man, was I wrong.
Back in Costa Rica I had asked God to reveal some of my spiritual gifts to me. I have always had vivid dreams, but that month I had a vivid dream every single night! It finally hit me that dreams are a big way God speaks to me. One of my dreams back in March was very vivid. I remember walking through a warehouse and my team, at the time, was there as well. I wandered away and found a friend of mine. We knew that there was evil at work in the warehouse. I found myself trying to hide and escape, and throughout the dream I just thought, “I have to trust God enough that if I jumped off a cliff, He would catch me.” This thought just kept running through my mind through out the dream. There was a breaking point and I knew I had to get out of the warehouse, so I just ran out the front doors and kept running, until I came to the edge of a cliff and I jumped…
Only to grab hold of the top of a hot-air balloon, that carried me across ocean waters.
Then I woke up.
Later I was reading a blog by one of the AIM staff, Hope, and she had written about her experience living out in the physical what is happening in the spiritual. At some point during the week God revealed to me that I would be doing that too.
Which brings us to Guatemala this past weekend.
This weekend my team and I went to Lake Atitlan, and I knew this would be my chance to take the leap of faith. Now some people might think a 25-30 foot jump into a body of water would be thrilling, I am here to tell you that I am not one of them. I am not a fan of heights or unfamiliar lakes, but the morning of the big jump I was high on excitement! When we approach the cliff jumping deck the nerves started to set in, and I realized I was actually going to do this and it was going to be more difficult for me than I’d imagined.
By the time I got to the jump site I was actually consumed with anxiety about jumping. It was more difficult to follow through with than I had originally believed it would be, but after battling my mind and my fears for a few minutes I shook it off, reminded myself why I was doing this (Jesus), and ran. It wasn’t too bad, and here’s what I learned…
It is not easy, and it can definitely be a struggle to get your whole self on board. You have to remind yourself why you’re doing it, that God has you, and then you just jump, trusting that at some point the free fall will be over and you’ll be safely swimming in the beautiful, blue water.
Cliff Jump of Faith from Kourtney Ellis on Vimeo.
