Adoption. Probably, in my opinion, one of the most beautiful things in the world. To take on a child that is not your own and love and cherish them as if they were is something to be admired.

I have always said I wanted to adopt, be a mommy to children that weren’t privileged enough to have one, but I am not sure that I had truly meant that I wanted to go through an extensive paperwork process, spend thousands of dollars to take on a child that wasn’t my own, then spend even more money to feed, clothe and provide for them. I think the idea just sounded cool to me. That is, until I met brother and sister, Martin and Zoey at the nursery school I am volunteering at this month.

Martin, 3. Zoey, 2. Adopted by a woman from the United Kingdom.

Sure, I have met people that were adopted before, but none of them had the impact on me that little Martin and Zoey have had. To be honest, I can’t pinpoint exactly what it is about them that truely gives me the desire and excitement to adopt one day.

A few days ago, I was sitting down at a restaurant eating lunch. Martin and Zoey just happened to be there with their mom and nanny. They were running around playing with the nanny hot on their tails, when Martin noticed mom was no longer around. His cry for “Mooommmmyyyyy!” wasn’t anything that I haven’t heard 100 times before, but it struck something in the deepest part of my heart, the part that only Jesus touches.

I think in that moment it really clicked in my heart and in my head how special it is for a child to see no skin color, or difference in race, that was his mommy and he loved her just the same, and likewise for his mother, to love these children full force as her own despite not carrying them for 9 months and having that “natural bond” that most women desire.

These past few weeks had been tough, I didn’t really understand why I was in Malawi, it didn’t feel like I was making an impact. But maybe I was supposed to be impacted this month. Maybe God placed me and Martin at that restaurant that day to impact my heart so greatly that one day I will use it to impact another life even more…

My future son or daughter.