I have now been home from Training Camp for two weeks and I still struggle to put it into words. My perspective on Jesus has widened. My love for Jesus has grown. And my excitement for this next year has increased greatly!
As I think back over the week of training camp, I think about how much weight I lost. We ate strange foods including fish soup for breakfast. We often had small meals shared between 8 people. Wevcarried chairs everywhere. We had morning workouts. And we danced all the time!
I came home 4lbs lighter! My personal trainer even told me she couldn't wait to take my measurements.
While I came home physically lighter, I also came home emotionally lighter.
I have an older sister. Our relationship has been difficult. We have had more downs than ups. I held onto the pain caused by our relationship/her for many years with a tight grip. I have been in counseling session after counseling session trying to figure out this pain, but I always ended up quitting because I never actually wanted loosen my grip it.
As I entered the first worship night at camp, I felt this intense spirit of resistance. At the time, I thought it was a
resistance to the process that AIM leads us through.
(Me, my brother, and my sister)
I fought this resistance for a full day on my own. Nothing was changing. After feeling deep in my soul that I needed to talk to someone about it and just be prayed over, I finally spoke with one of the trainers named Jessica ( she's an AIM staff member). She prayed some powerful words over me. I left that time with her expecting to have this resistance gone. But it wasn’t.
During worship that night, I fought with God about how I obeyed Him in talking to someone and this resistance was still there. Then God very directly said to me, “Keep fighting this spirit of resistance and let me show you how BIG my Spirit is in you.”
“I may be weak, but Your Spirit’s strong in me.” – Give Me Faith by Elevation Worship
Read part 2 to see how God showed me how big His Spirit is.
