Today was just one of those days. It was one of those days where I just wanted to be home. I just wanted what I wanted. I wanted to sleep in a bed where I didn’t wake up sticky. I wanted to sleep in til I was content. I wanted to just lie in my bed alone with my thoughts til my little heart was content. I wanted to casually walk upstairs and fix whatever the heck I wanted for breakfast. It was one of those mornings where I wanted to make a pot of coffee then head back downstairs and put on some worship music on a speaker and just worship and be with my Jesus. It was just one of those mornings and one of those days.
Instead, I had to wake up at 6am. I put my headphones in so not to disturb anyone else having their quiet time. Then I walked downstairs to fix oatmeal for breakfast (which is something I’ve learned to like on the race). I then came back upstairs and got ready to walk in the scorching sun to a village where I would be jumped on by little kids. Instead of having my casual morning in the comfort of my own home, I had to sweat and sweat as I was out in the sun. And instead of spending time with coffee and Jesus all morning long, I watched little kids, some with clothes on and others without run out into the muddy streets as we walked by. Instead of everything I wanted for my morning, I had a little girl come up and grab onto mypinky and just walk with me. And I watched as a little 6 year old boy clung to one of my teammates. And I couldn’t help but notice how malnutritioned he was. And because my desires for that morning didn’t line up with what was actually happening, I drug my feet and didn’t jump in.
(Katie playing with a 6 year old boy)
As we walked back I couldn’t help but realize how selfish my thoughts were for that morning and how I missed out on something bigger than myself because all I could think about was how I just wanted the pleasures of home. Although home is so close, I still have 8 more weeks on the field and I pray that I don’t miss another opportunity because of selfish desires. What have you missed out on this week because you were distracted by yourself?
