It has bee a little while since my last blog post… I have simply been
so busy that every time I think about writing I simply pass out. Of
course, staying up to finish a last minute video doesn’t help…
Christmas
and New Year passed without warning.. I think it is because I went to
Bolivia for Christmas, and I didn’t work this New Year like I normally
do. It is all so strange and alien, to me, this life of mine.
I’ve had many a conversation lately, with different friends, and they all have been telling me the same thing.
I
talk about the things going on in my life, and as I reflect about what
has happened, and how things are so different, I’m reminded about how
powerful God really is.
One of my dear friends, Elena, after I had
confessed how much I used to hate kids and the Latin American culture,
told me, “Wow, God really did a number on you.”
and then another one
of my friends echoed that statement, “Kirsten, you have really come
into your own. Your confidence stands out.”
I love being told things
like this, not because I like to think about “how awesome I am,” but
rather, how much God has changed me. And other people have noticed.
I
used to tell people that God was working in my life, years ago, and I
remember someone I used to hold in high regard tell me, “Kirsten, I
feel like you’re telling people that for attention.” I remember how
much that hurt, because I really felt like God had been working in me.
Now, it is great to have people tell me they see the change, because I
don’t have to broadcast it to make it real.
For the first time in my
life, a couple of days ago, I woke up fearless. I remember thinking, it
didn’t matter what I did, or how little money I made doing it, because
I KNEW this was exactly where I was supposed to be. The future is still
uncertain, but I am no longer afraid of it. If anything, I’m excited.
I’m excited that God thought enough of me to continue working on me, to
not give up when I wanted to.
We can totally change the world when God is involved, because He’s so capable of changing OUR world.
~Blessings
Kige
