Late Night Ponderings

Sometimes I think the Holy Spirit gives me some of the best revelations right before I fall asleep. Usually, this means I’m already in my bed, in my pajamas, the lights off and my eyes closed. Usually, I just say, “I’ll remember in the morning,” and then what happens? I forget.

 

But not today:

When it comes to uncomfortable sin, we do one of two things.
We either A: Talk about it, broadcast it, let everyone know we are okay with it.
If we advertise that we are not affected by our shame and our pain, people
might even come to respect us for what we have discovered, by pretending that
we aren’t controlled by anyone but our own desires. People may hail us as
heroes or visionaries, but in that we are only fooling ourselves into thinking
we have discovered a new way to live. Or B: we cover it up, bury it so deep inside
our souls that no one can see it, because if we can pretend that we are stone
faced untouchables, then people will come to envy us. They will exalt us and
put us on a pedestal because we seem to be problem free, the way the world truly desires to be. Yet inside our soul
is slowly dying, starving on the hunger for REAL love, because our hearts want
so badly to be TRULY known.

So is there a Third option? Is it possible to live in the
middle somewhere? Could it be that we were meant to live real OPEN lives, free
from shame and fear of what others think? Were we supposed to be honest with
ourselves and others, in the understanding that it is truly for freedom that we
have been set free? No longer in bondage to what society and culture TELL us to
be “okay” with, but also honest and free enough with our own faults and sins
that it may actually set OTHERS free as well?

If we can do this, won’t we truly come to understand what it
means to “Know and be Known?” How glorious of a day would that be when I can
look my sister in the eye and day, “You know, I once struggled with
pornography, or drugs or whatever,” and she may look back with tears in her
eyes and say, “So have I.”