Wow, how the time flys……P-squad is already half way done with The World Race!!! How is that even possible? I don’t really know where the time goes, it feels just like yesterday I was at training camp and then getting geared up to start the race at launch and leave for Mozambique… Well, here we are 6 months later in Thailand and half way through this crazy journey around the world.
This year of my life hasn’t been like any other I’ve ever experienced, to say the least this year has been one wild ride of ups and downs. There have been times I’ve thought to myself and voiced to others, that I can’t believe this is my life right now, that we are so blessed to be out here and being used by God while traveling like nomads around the world seeing the power of God unleashed. Those are the exciting times and the times I want to last forever or least time slow down. Then there’s the times this year that have been just plain hard. Those are the days it feels like the race literally sucks the life out of you and you want nothing more than to leave and quit. Yep, I said it and I know every racer past and present has felt the same. There’s those days that you just want to get your butt a packing and flee. But I’ve been around long enough to know and discern that is our FLESH speaking and we must rely on God to help us get through those trying times. Don’t fight your flesh alone because you won’t win with out The Lord’s strength and power, you will be fighting a loosing battle.
I had a whole month and a half where I was in a major funk, every fleshly and worldly thought you could have I had it and I felt like the enemy was winning the battle. God felt so far away that I couldn’t even bring myself to pray or read my Bible. I saw myself sinking into a pit and couldn’t stop it. There would be random times I would have “shotgun prayers to God” and they usually would be similar to this: “Where are you”? Why do you feel so distant? How come my passion for you has completely diminished? What are you doing and what are you trying to teach me? That has been the extent of my prayer life recently. I believe I’m coming out of the funk that I was in. I’m learning more and more that life and our circumstances is more about how we respond than actually what happens to us. Ultimately we have the choice to choose our thoughts and our actions.
My choice is to choose to persevere through the mire and mud of my problems this year. There has been many things that have tried to steal my attention away from God and His purposes. And alot of times more so than not those are the ploys of the devil trying to get me off track, Has he won? Yes, at times but not ultimately. I know satans future and I also know mine. Plain and simple, I WIN and so do all of Gods children. WE WIN for eternity because of what Christ did on the cross for all of us:)
As I look back in hindsight of the last 6 months, are their times I wish I would have responded differently? Of Course !!! Many many many times. Did I fail? ABSOLUTLY NOT! I don’t believe in failure anymore. I believe I learned how not to respond in certain situations. Every outcome that we don’t desire is a learning expierence and I believe that’s a great teacher. Something I’m doing is eliminating failure because the truth is failure Doesn’t exist.
I believe God is faithful, even when we are faithless and I believe He perseveres after us even after we have quit or want to……God is always good, life might not always feel like its good but one powerful truth I’ve learned is we have a choice how we are going to respond in any given situation.
James 1:12
Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him.
