“It started out as a feeling which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought which then turned into a quiet word
& then that word grew louder & louder, until there was a battle cry
I’ll come back when you call me
No need to say GOODBYE
Just because everything is cHaNgInG, doesn’t mean that it’s never been this way before
All you can do is try to know who your friends are
As you head off to the war
Pick a star on the dark horizon & follow the light
You’ll come back when it’s over
No need to say GOODBYE
You’ll come back when it’s over
No need to say GOODBYE
Now we’re back to the beginning
It’s just a feeling & no one knows yet
But, just because they can’t feel it too, doesn’t mean that you have to forget
Let your memories grow stronger & stronger until there before your eyes
You’ll come back when they call you
No need to say GOODBYE
You’ll come back when they call you
This song has been on my mind for awhile. I first heard it in Antigua, Guatemala after watching The Chronicles of Narnia with my team which was month two of the Race. It is now month ten. I have exactly forty days left.
Forty days before I left on the Race, I can remember sitting in Espresso News (a great coffee shop) in good old Boone, NC enjoying a cup of coffee. It was May & I was busy raising support. Life was crazy. I was working, moving, saying goodbye (I HATE goodbyes) & now…well, the World Race is almost over. & lately, these thoughts keep running through my head:
Aside from the inevitable ending of this great season in my life, since coming off the Ride of Misery I have learned a lot & changed more than I even realized up until now. During are debrief in Bucharest, God started confirming a new season is coming in my life, new things, good things.
“He who raised Christ from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies through His Spirit who dwells in you.” Romans 8:11
You see, this is a promise from God to His people. He promises something NEW. The “old” in my life took so long to be put aside & The cloud that has been over me for the past two years is FINALLY, FINALLY, FINALLY GONE!!! Who knew that going thru Zimbabwe would have changed my life!?! While there, I noticed I was doing really good but was not ready to believe it entirely. Yes, in Malawi I loved running around from 6 AM to plant churches & preach all day, but when night time came, we all crashed. I did not have free time to do or think much else than ministry.
By the time I made it to Romania, so much of my healing was evident by my team, my squad, my coaches, & my dad. I was the stubborn one who was last to “get-it”. It did not actually hit me until I was talking about this with my dad over Skype. He just said, “Well, if it isn’t broken, you don’t need to fix it.” Those were the best words to hear =) There is nothing more to fix.
“Happy are those who are strong in the Lord.” Psalm 84:5
So, I have been happy, blessed, & full of joy since Malawi. This is not a black & white change, but a transformation into the Kira that I used to be.
