I’m going to let you in on something I’ve been struggling with that has become increasingly evident as I’ve been fundraising for the World Race.
When I first began with fundraising I was terrified that God wouldn’t supply the money I needed. My mind was constantly struggling with the following lies:
What if you’re wrong and you’re not supposed to do the World Race?
What if God doesn’t think you’re working hard enough and doesn’t supply the money because you haven’t earned it?
What if you tell everyone in faith that God is going to supply the money and he doesn’t? How will that make him look? You were obviously at fault here not him…
One day when I was sitting in my room typing up another fundraiser for Facebook, I began unconsciously censoring the post; eliminating anything that might put some expectation on God. The lies were screaming loud in my head again, and I didn’t want to “set him up to fail.” Can you believe that? God stopped me right there and whispered an eye opening truth into my spirit, “It isn’t your responsibility to prove my Glory.” I knew right then that not only was I attempting to protect the honor and glory of God who is fully capable of doing that on his own, but I was also using it to cover up something deeper inside myself. My lack of faith and trust that he would follow through with the promises he had made to me.
I had decided from the beginning of what was supposed to be an incredible faith journey to take it upon myself to somehow protect God. You know, just in case he decided not to do what I had hoped he would do. But this isn’t faith at all, and that was the intention the enemy had all along by placing those lies in my mind in the first place. It was an effort to destroy my faith and keep me from fully trusting God.
But I am being reminded of a little song with a lot of power that God placed in my spirit a couple of months ago. It goes,
Declare in faith what will be and move mountains with me.
This is something so powerful that needs to be remembered. When we make declarations of faith, and speak out what will be then anything is possible through Jesus.
Mark 11:22-24 tpt states, “Let the faith of God be in you! Listen to the truth I speak to you: If someone says to this mountain with great faith and having no doubt: ‘Mountain, be lifted up and thrown into the midst of the sea,’ and believes that what he says will happen, it will be done. This is the reason I urge you to boldly believe for whatever you ask for in prayer — believe that you have received it and it will be yours.”
So today I am making the decision to fully let go of the worry and doubt and to trust God’s plan in everything he has put before me to do!
