The past two months have been the best and worst months of my life. They’ve been the best because I‘m living out God’s plan for my life every single day, and it’s the most overwhelming, satisfying feeling ever. They’ve been the worst because God is literally tearing my life apart, and breaking me down to show me how badly it needs to happen to be fully reliant on him. Walking in obedience to God fully is so hard. The hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. The month of November has been the hardest. I miss home everyday. I have wanted nothing more than to just give my mom a hug. Unfortunately that is not possible… I know following God’s plan consist of me leaving everything behind and following him, but it’s so hard to grasp the fact that my family is included in that. Family means EVERYTHING to me. It always has been, and it hasn’t always been the best, but right now it’s better than it has ever been, and God asked me to walk away from it and leave it behind for a year. For a long time that didn’t make sense to me… and I refused to do it. That was all fine until about two years ago when I knew God was telling me there was so much more for me, but I was going to have to make huge sacrifices in order to do them. He had a plan, I just had to get on board. I felt so convicted that day. I want nothing more than to walk in Obedience to God. That is the day I knew I was going to have to leave my family behind in whatever way that looked. Since I’ve been on The World Race I’ve grown tremendously. I’ve grown in ways I know I would not have if I hadn’t been obedient. God is slowly kicking all of my walls down in order to rebuild me in a manner that fully glorifies and relies on him. With this I want to encourage you. If you have a wall up that you’ve refused to kick down to let God in fully. Let him kick it down. Because although this has been the hardest two months of my life it’s by far been the best. You’ll never be truly happy until you walk in full Obedience to him. It’s worth it… I PROMISE. Take it from someone who literally was asked to give up everything. Don’t forget that I still need $3,000 more to be fully funded by the end of January. This journey of sharing the gospel with anyone and everyone around the world is amazing. I am right where I am supposed to be, but I? can’t stay if I’m not fully funded!! Please, please consider donating, and letting God kick your walls down. You won’t regret either decision!;)
