So this blog was written by Mom! I ‘m in awe at how the Lord is working. Not only in my life, but also my Amazing sweet Momma! Those of you that know me well know how close we are, and you can probably how hard it has been! God is so good though!
When Kimbra ask me to write this blog, my first thought was NOOOOOOO! Of course how do you say no to your daughter who is thousand’s of miles away from you. So here is my journey so far that I have experienced with my girl on the World Race. I will start with day one, the first time she called me and said, Mom there is this mission trip I think I am going to go on. I said, ok what is it, it with an organization called AIM (Adventures in Mission) it is an 11 month 11 countries mission trip called the World Race. All the normal questions start to fly of who with, where are you going, when, and every other question you can imagine. At this time I was really glad she couldn’t see my face because she would have known exactly what I was thinking. I did not want my daughter to be gone for 11 months!!! What about school, what about birthdays, holidays, what about $$$??? So, I said ok baby why don’t you pray about it and see where it goes. So, the next phone call of course true to her form was by FaceTime and I knew I had to keep my emotions hidden from her!! Mom, I really feel God is calling me to do this!!! Have you prayed about it, yes ma’am and I have a phone interview set up to see if I get accepted. WOW STOP!!!! This is real and moving way too fast!! Needless to say she got accepted, and was told to pray about it before she accepted!! At this point I am a little freaked, because if you knew Kimbra and I use the word knew on purpose she WAS a very reserved young lady who would have never even thought about doing this much less actually do it!!! It was time to sit down and have a heart to heart with this child of mine, because she was serious. I was worried about a lot of things like a Mother would be. Being in dangerous places, what she would be doing, who she would be with, who would look out for her, the amount of money needed to even go. I was an emotional mess, and she never knew it! See, Kimbra is a Momma’s girl to say the least and if I would have shown even a little bit of resistance to her mission, I feared I could sway her from doing what God had planned for her! It would have been so selfish of me, and I knew I had to sit back and support, help, and do whatever it was she ask of me to help her get to the launch and through the entire 11 months. This had become a reality and she was going and she attacked the fundraising with a vengeance and got her message out to help her along!! It was a long uphill struggle but she was determined. There were so many people along the way that told her this was stupid, or why would she even consider doing it. They tried to talk her out of it, and forever ask her well what does your Momma think of this. Her answer was always my Momma is my biggest supporter, and she is correct. I may not always agree or want her to go but I will always be there for her. I secretly hoped she would change her mind at times but most of the time I knew as I still do this was going to be life changing for my soft hearted, loving, beautiful daughter! I stilled myself to support her no matter what I was feeling!! This wasn’t about me, it was about God’s plan for my daughter!!
As you can see the months leading up to the launch were a lot of hard work and a lot of mixed emotions! Launch was nearing and she was getting nervous, and I stilled myself yet again to cope with my little girl traveling and being gone for almost a year!! We took her to the airport early that morning, and again I stilled my heart from breaking watching my baby leave me for 11 months. I did better than I could have ever imagined!! God was truly sitting with this Momma!! He knew what he was asking of Kimbra and so did I but I didn’t realize until that moment what God was asking of me. He was asking me to let her go do his work and not to hold her back because I love her and want to protect her!! God had her, and he does so much better at it than I ever could. We start out in Chile and we get sick, and I can’t be there! She makes it through and so do I!! God has it, I remind myself again!! We are now in Thailand 5 months in and there are days her calls make my day and sometimes her calls make me the saddest Momma on the planet! As I mentioned before birthdays, holidays, have been hard but the hardest for me is when she calls and nothing I say can make her not miss me as much as I miss her!! I am so proud of this daughter of mine! Her strength, will, and perseverance are remarkable! I have learned so much so far about allowing God to be her Father and let him take care of her because her earthly Mother had to let her go to do God’s Work. I get ask all the time about her and how am I holding up and they can’t believe I let her go. She isn’t mine to keep, she belongs to God and he has given me the Honor of being her Mother and letting her fly and do his will! I am in no way saying this has not been HARD for me, I am her Momma and we are very close, but I know her and what she needs! She needs and needed the most important human in her life to be the rock she needs to continue and follow God’s plan for her life!! Please continue to pray for her and her squad! Please do not forget the family they all left at home that were also ask by God to let them go so they could spread his word to others! I love you Sis and miss you so very much! Love your Momma!
Vana
