My Squad and I have been in Indonesia for just over a week now, and my team and I are starting getting into a groove with ministry and the church we are partnering with this month. We have been going to Family Worship nights, a Men’s meeting, youth theatre practice and learning about the history of the Church.
Yesterday (1/26/18) I woke up and was hit with homesickness. I was shocked that it hit me as hard as it did, because I did so well with saying “see you later to everyone at home and my mom at Launch… but then again that should have clued me in that when homesickness hit, it was gonna hit hard, because I care about and love so deeply my mom, sister, nephews, and babies – normally when I say “see you later” I am an emotional mess because my heart hates to be apart from those I love, but when I was preparing to leave I didn’t shed a single tear (and there is nothing wrong with that).
It is incredibly hard to be on the other side of the world with a 14hour time difference between me and the ones I love. My heart is having such a hard time being separated from everything I know and love. It is hard not being able to pick up the phone and call/FaceTime whenever I want (typically when I have free time it’s the middle of the night back home and people are sleeping), or get in my car and go for a drive to clear my head.
Yesterday I was able to stay back with Chelsea while the rest of the girls went out exploring, and let me tell you that staying home and spending time with God, re-reading my “open when…” letters, and just talking with Chelsea was what my heart needed.
My heart still hurts and misses home (I am even tearing up as I type this blog) but I know that God has my babies, mom, sister, and nephews and will take care of them. If he can take care of me in Indonesia, he can definitely take care of them in the US.
I know this won’t be my last bout with homesickness, so when the homesickness hits I will continue to press into God and him to comfort me.
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A little while later after writing this blog and spending some time with God, I shared with my team how I have been battling homesickness and the enemy speaking lies to me by telling me that I should quit now and go home because I am not worth it.
My team was able to speak life into the situation, and it was what my Squad Leader Megan said that really struck me. She said “you are fiercely loyal to the ones that you love and that is a characteristic of God that he needs to shine through you. Because you love so fiercely it is hard to be away from those you love and care about, but God is going to use that this year to do great things for his Kingdom!” My Brain understands that the enemy is attacking me because I am going to have a huge impact on the Kingdom, but my heart is struggling to catch up.
<3 Kimberly <3
Psalm 94:19
When doubts filled my mind, Your comfort gave me renewed hope and cheer
Fundraising Update
I am about $1,000 from my $13k deadline and about $5,000 from being Fully Funded… also did you know that it costs roughly $50/day to be on The Race? So, would you consider adopting a day for $50, a week for $350, or even a month for $1,500?
