God spoke to me today. Not in and audible voice or even in my head, but through a man, a mentor. He said I am okay. That doesn’t sound like much, but when God speaks it is always enough.
As I lay in bed contemplating that conversation, one of the things running through my head is why I don’t trust people. I have never really trusted anybody, not even God. Well, I do trust Him to care for other people, I would even say that I trust Him with my life. But I have never fully trusted Him with my heart.
All year, I look at these people leading this race, and I knew that I belong here. I knew that I am tied to these people, beyond just this 11 month period. But I have always held a distance. I never joined the family, I was just a guest.
I looked at them and some of the other racers, and I looked at myself. I knew we were all diamonds, but I thought I was a lower quality. I didn’t make the grade and would never compare. But the truth is, we are all cut from the same rock. We are the same material, from the same source. I may not be perfectly cut and polished yet, but I hold the same luster and brilliance as the rest of them.
I am part of the family, whether they all know it or not. I will shine, because God is faithful and I didn’t come this far to sit back and watch. I want my inheritance, and I’m not stopping until it is mine.
