So this is where the adventure begins..
A few months ago it never even crossed my mind that by next year I would be leaving home, leaving my family, my job, my friends, my suuuuuper awesome bed, and everything that is comfortable and familiar to me…
This was not part of my plan… I already had my plan… and it was a good one too. My plan was all figured out. I would work at my job that I love, and have been at for over 6 years, and in approximately 2 years I would be married to an adoring husband. I would have 1.5 kids, a dog, and a cute little home.. all furnished from Ikea…..
Seems perfect right? I was confident of the direction my life was going. But God had something else in mind. something far better. (He always does)
I knew something was missing, over the past few years and overwhelmingly so in the past few months I started to experience what I like to call a holy discontent.I was living a pretty comfortable and routine life. and I liked it that way. but I knew in my heart that God had something more for me. I felt like he was calling me to follow him out into deeper water. to do something far greater than myself. something that would require complete dependence on him. and I no longer felt ok with living an ordinary life. So I prayed a dangerous prayer…
God. What do YOU want me to do? What is YOUR plan for my life? Just tell me and I’ll do it. I want your will not mine. I’ll go wherever you want me to go.
and here we are….
a few months after that prayer I decided to start researching Adult missions trips. I figured maybe I would take a month off in the summer to go do a short term missions trip. Again God had something greater in mind…. in my search I came across The World Race. I thought to myself “that’s crazy I could never do something like that…11 countries in 11 months??.. God I was thinking more like 1 month… 3 tops.” but there was a quiz that said Do you have what it takes to be a World Racer? and I decided to take it. At the end it said.. Congratulations you have exactly what it takes! and something stirred on the inside of me. That night after doing a little more research and watching a few videos, I knew without a doubt that this was what God was calling me to. I Honestly cant even explain the feeling, when I say I was weeping, that is an understatement. I decided then that I was going. but I’m the type of person that second guesses almost every decision that I make so of course I thought first of all the silly reasons why I couldn’t go.
ie: what about my job? what if I miss my family? how am I going to raise that much money? what am I going to eat? what if there’s snakes? etc. ect. ect.
But none of those reasons seemed valid enough to stop me. I felt God telling me “If you are willing, I will make you able.” I knew then if I didn’t take this leap of faith that I would forever regret it and I might not experience the abundant life that God has for me. So before I could let my fears talk me out of it. I applied.
So in January 2016 I will be starting my journey. I’m so excited and terrified at the same time. I don’t really know what to expect. but I’m excited to follow Jesus into the unknown. To live a life of reckless abandon and complete surrender. To get to serve people in ways that I never imagined. and to have my life completely wrecked and changed by the love of God. Please pray for me as I prepare to enter this new season. I’m excited to share this with you all.
“Lord, if its really you, tell me to come walking to you on the water”
“Yes, come,” Jesus said.
Matthew 14: 25-32
