Have you ever had a crush? I have had many in my life. They are silly for sure. I have realized in the past week or so that for most of my life I have had a crush on God. From afar I stand admiring my crush. I talk about him and boast of the mighty, powerful things he can do. I study and even memorize the beautiful words that have been written down, a love letter for me. But that’s it with a crush. You get oogly, googly feelings when they are around and talk about what they do in other people’s lives, but it’s not a real relationship. God is beckoning me to come and live a deep, two-sided love relationship with him. A love relationship is not just talking about someone, it’s not just words on a page, it’s not admiration or a five minute prayer to start and end my day. It’s talking to God and being me. God knows what freaks me out, what makes me mad, what gives me pleasure and my strengths and weaknesses, but he wants me to tell him. He wants me to share my heart with him. I want God, not a distant relationship from afar. I want to be able to yell at the top of my lungs when I’m mad, to cry every tear my eyes can cry when I feel injustice or need, to laugh until my stomach and cheeks ache, to feel his loving arms around me when I need comfort, and to share a beautiful sunset together. No more apathetic days that just pass by. I want ALL of God. The saddest part of all of it is that God wants it even more than I do; he waits for me to come in deeper. So why do I let busyness crowd out my relationship with God? Why do I shrink our relationship into the leftovers of my day? This is the most important thing in my life. What about you? Are you living a vital love relationship with the God almighty or do you just have a crush on him?
