I can only remember one time in my life when I audibly heard the voice of God. I mean like someone talking to me as if he was next to me. This is what he said to me:
“You will drown”
Back in October 2013, while at training camp for the race, I was pulled aside by one of the AIM staff. She told me that they were just touching base with some of us to see if the race was the right program. She mentioned that the race was 80% evangelism and 20% service. There was concern as to whether the world race was the right place for me since evangelism wasn’t one of my strengths and service is what i’m good at. She asked me some questions the last of which was, “when did you get saved or come to know the Lord?” I didn’t have a date to give her. I don’t have one of those powerful testimonies of “the Lord healed me and saved me and from there I started living for him” or “I was living a life of sin and the Lord delivered me”. I was raised in a Christian home. I have always been taught about God. I didn’t rebel as a teenager and started “living in the world”. I guess my answer wasn’t good enough. After just spending maybe 10mins in conversation she looked at me said, “you know Kim, I don’t think you have accepted Jesus into your heart”.
WHATTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!! Was this lady serious? My whole life has been about Jesus…
I considered her to be a respected person in the organization. I considered her to be someone who was wise. Therefore, those words broke everything in me. I couldn’t believe she was questioning my Jesus. At the end of the conversation she told me to go sit in prayer and ask my Father if the race was the right place for me. I spent the next 2 hours sitting by the river. I never cried more in my life. I must have questioned everything in me. As if I wasn’t already feeling out of place at training camp, her words did not help.
While at training camp my thoughts were that these people are so holy and Jesus filled. They speak in tongues and can preach and have been to bible school or worship school and can prophesy. I thought man, these are some powerful young people, I can’t do any of those things. I do not measure up, I am not qualified to go and speak to the nations.
As I sat in my doubt I asked God to speak to me. Should I be going on the World Race? Am I good enough to go and speak to the nations? Should I commit the next year of my life to this? Then He spoke those very simple words to me,
“You will drown”
At first, I had no idea what it meant. Was I going to be overwhelmed? Was the race more than I can do? Was I going to drown in this thing? It wasn’t until worship that night that it all became clear to me. The worship team introduced a new song. They started singing “I want to drown in the river of your love”. Then it hit me…
That night I decided that I was going on the World Race. That I was good enough. That I was going to drown in the river of His love. I am half way through my journey. I have met some incredible people and heard some unbelievable stories. I have seen what His love can do for people, and how sharing that love can change lives. My heart is sooooo full and overwhelmed with joy. I wake up everyday thankful for my life. I am so incredibly BLESSED! I see His Love Everyday. It has been an unbelievable journey. So excited for the second half 🙂
I challenge you to see His love, to give His love. Take that step of faith. Do the impossible. Trust when you don’t understand. You will drown in His Love!
Stay Blessed
Kim
Fundraising Update: currently at $12,523. Still need to raise $3,730. MANY THANKS to everyone who has supported my race. Both financially and through prayer. Final deadline is July 1st. If you’d like to help keep me on the race and not get sent home, would you prayerfully consider supporting me? Thanks 🙂
