I’m a Loser

 

“Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it.” Matt. 10:39

 

Our race started bright and early Friday morning at 7:30am when we got on a bus and headed off to Kuala Lumpur. All of the other teams thought we were in the lead because they weren’t leaving until 1:30 that afternoon, but little did they know that we were on a 20hr bus ride and they were on a 3hr flight.

 

When we started this race, we had a good idea that we were going to loose…but since our tickets were already purchased and we are on such a strict budget, there was no changing modes of transport… we were stuck on our lovely bus ride.

 

I could go on and on and describe how awful our bus ride was. The fact that it was suppose to take 20hrs and it took 28hrs… the fact that we had to change buses 5 times, the fact that i was up for over 44hrs with no sleep, the fact that we set a bus station for 4hrs in the middle of nowhere on a dirt rode, but I don’t want to dwell on the bad …I am writing to tell you about how good our God is.

 

On our last bus ride we were all split up so we were sitting by random people… well the guy Friske was sitting by was a Christian so they started a conversation and got to talking about where we could go to church while we were here. So, he gave her his contact info for us to call him and he could tell us where to go to church, so we did just that.

 

We arrived at the train station this morning at 9:15… there was suppose to be a man that met us at 9:00… he was not there, so we stayed until 9:50 when we decided he was not coming. So, we bought a train ticket to go back… as we were waiting for the train to arrive we saw a man running towards us. This man was here to get us and take us to church. The van had gotten locked in a gate with no key and took hours to get the van out… so he was late and it was only by God’s grace that we ended up meeting up.

 

This was definitely an attack of the enemy because from that point on today has been the most amazing day I have had thus far on this trip. During the past couple of weeks there has been a spiritual wall it seems. It has been hard to pray, listen to God’s voice, and to get into the word. We all have been fighting this.

 

We are living a dream. So many people would die to be able to be in our shoes, the way we are able to go around and minister and to meet wonderful people…but I have to be honest and say this… at times this is the hardest thing I have ever done. Being in this and feeling as though you and God are farther away from each other than you have ever been.

 

Today was that refresher… that reminder that the Lord sends at just the right time, at just the right moment to remind you that He is still there, faithful, He has not forgotten me. As I walked into the church I was greeted by the friendliest people I have ever met… AND as I got closer to the meeting hall I heard worship songs that I could connect with and even better…it was all in English. I could not believe it. I felt like I was back home. The worship time was so amazing.

 

As we stood and sang
“

Shout for the King is among us… God is here in our praises… Shout for the King is among us… Praise him… Praise him… Praise Him… Praise Him… Praise Him in everything…” The Holy Spirit was so strong, as my eyes filled with tears and chills came over my body all I could do is think about how great, how awesome our God is. He was there… meeting with me reminding me He loved me.

 

The worship time continued and the Lord continued to speak to me in many different ways. He brought me back to Luke 15 “You did not choose me, but i chose you and appointed you that you should go and bear much fruit and that your fruit should abide, so that whatever you ask the Father in my name, he may give it to you.” …and what do you know… the preacher’s sermon was on Luke 15… I was like shut up, are you kidding me…Wow…what an amazing God we serve.

 

After church we stuck around for coffee and met some other amazing amazing people. The Lord definitely put this whole day together for us. It was full of divine appointments. We had the pastor and his wife invite us for dinner, we had one man that is a missionary to the USA to invite us to lunch, and so many other invitations that we had to start turning them down.

 

We were pampered all day long, we were taken to lunch and given tons and tons of food, brought back to our hotel to freshen up, driven back to the pastor’s house for tea and coffee, taken to a cell group where we had praise and worship and a wonderful wonderful meal, then taken to have Indian pancakes, and then driven back to our hotel.

 

The hospitality that these people showed us, the love that was in them from Christ was such a refreshing reminder of what we are here for, that we are not alone, and in the midst of all of this when you think other believers are so few and far between, the Lord will put them in your path just when you need them.

 

Now…to go back to my verse at the beginning… Yes… we took a bus to Kuala Lumpur instead of a plane, Yes… we lost the race by more than 12hrs… Yes… we were discouraged… BUT if we would not have taken that bus, Friske would not have met Daniel that “hooked” us up with these amazing people. So… Yes… we are losers… literally (we lost the race) and spiritually (we have given our lives for the Lord… for this and He is blessing us beyond our imagination).

 

We are leaving for India tomorrow night at 6:00. We are heading to an orphanage to work and play with about 75 orphans. This orphanage is hurting. The pastor was thrown in jail about 2 months ago and has a 50% chance of being killed either in jail, or when he gets out by a hit man. Many of the orphans that were once at the orphanage are no longer there and they has little to zero food. The only food they have is what the farmers donate. This is what we are walking into and to tell you the truth… I am pumped. Yes… we need your support and prayers, but the Spirit that is upon me, the new anointing and refreshing that I received today is about to explode out. I am so ready to go and step into the next step… and this is it! Amen…Praise God!!!!

 

Internet will be slim to none, so you will hear from me again when I can… please just keep us in your prayers, the orphans, the orphanage, the workers, and the pastor and his family. We are expecting big things… Praise God.

 

God Bless you all… thank you so much for all of the prayers, encouragement, and support. The amount that I get from people I don’t even know is so amazing and I know that it is only the Lord… He knows how much I need that.

 

 

This is my cry

My one desire

To be with you my Lord

To be with you my Lord

 

Its more than a song

Its one desire

Is be with You

Is be with you Jesus