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Last night was a good night for me. Since being here, we have been living it up. Going to the beach, staying in Beverly Hills, seeing stars, getting to go to the red carpet where the Oscars happened, going to Jay Leno, etc etc. and its just hard to get your mind back into the swing of ministry and traveling the world again…but last night was a break through for me.

I have been a bit emotional. I was reading a letter from my mom and looking at pictures she sent and in the middle of my tears Gary Black (the guy here helping us debrief) says… let’s pray before Kim makes me start to cry. Being as close to this guy as I am, I cover my face with the letter from my mom and start to laugh.

The day went on and around dinner time I saw him and said we need to talk. He came and had dinner with me and Jess and I spilled my heart to him. He said “how are you” in response I was very honest. I said to tell you the truth; I am not very good at all and continued to elaborate…this is the gist of what I said…

I am use to ministering and walking in the gifts that God has given me, but at the same time when I have been in ministry acting in the gifts and using them, I have always had people there to lift me up, encourage me, lead me, etc etc. Well… I feel no one  in my group is “there” and I feel at times  that I have to back off and at times they think I am crazy.

My heart is for healing and deliverance, to see people set free and when I have to or feel like I have to back off and not walk in those gifts, so I won’t offend people it hurts me in my spirit so bad. It makes me sick. One night the Lord gave me a word for each individual in my team and I prophesied over them. Later I felt tension from some people and since then, I have backed off a lot because it hurt.

NOT because I doubt what I know and believe, but because I lack the theology knowledge to answer qusestions. I know what I know what I know and believe what I believe and have faith because I have personally experienced so many things, I can’t answer all the “hard” questions…in response to all this I have backed off a lot and the Lord is saying NO…No more.

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Gary preach about the gifts last night and spoke over some people and different things and at one point, he cam eto me. Re-released all my gifts. Filled me up with a double portion, double annointing and said "step up"…NOW.
So…I sat back down and a bit later Gary was praying for a girl and looked at me and said "Kim…what are you doing? You dont receive things like that and just sit there…get up." So I got up and the Lord started giving me words and different things for people. It was so great, so fresh, so refreshing.
If you will…just please pray for me that I WILL step up in this, walk in this, and be the leader in this that my team needs and when my team and Paul question me, the Lord gives me the words to use in response.
I know this has gotten long…sorry…one last thing…
So, after all that Gary Jess and I were talking again and he aske "if you could do anything after this trip what would it be"? So I answered very honestly…my heart is to have a healing and deliverence ministry, and to have other kids and people to minister to and pour my gifts into and send them out to do the same. He responded…DUH…you have a discipleship
annointing.hahaha…anyway…so we have it all set. when I get through with this, I will go back to the States. Go to CO Springs and be a leader in their descipleship school and they willl help me get on my feet to start me ministry I want.
PRAISE the LORD!!! I am so excited and so pumped.
I need to run and do a couple more emails. I hope to talk to you soon.
Oh…when you email back I will be in China so be careful and use "key" names and words for God, Jesus, Lord, Bible, etc etc…also do not mention my name. 🙂
Hope you are doing good.
I sent you this pic, thought you might enjoy…this is my new Bling Bling I got done on Venice Beach.”,1]
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Gary preach about the gifts last night and spoke over some people and different things and at one point, he came to me. He really encouraged me, prphesied over me some incredible things, and re-released some of  my gifts. Filled me up with a double portion, double anointing and said “step up”…NOW.

So…I sat back down and a bit later Gary was praying for a girl and looked at me and said “Kim…what are you doing? You don’t receive things like that and just sit there…get up.” So I got up and the Lord started giving me words and different things for people. It was so great, so fresh, so refreshing.

If you will…just please pray for me that I WILL step up in this, walk in this, and be the leader in this that my team needs and when my team and other people question me, the Lord gives me the words to use in response.

So…tomorrow bright and early we head out for China. I will be back soon to update you on how we are and let you know that we have had safe travels.

Pray for us as we do have a long flight, that we all get through customs okay, that we are able to obatin visas easily and that the Lord will grant each of us tremendous grace and favor.

Thank you all.

I miss you and love you so much.

Pictures of LA will be coming soon.