Yesterday was market day…oh my gosh…it was Crazy Crazy. There were people everywhere and the amount of vegetables, fruits, meats, spices, pastas, rice, anything you can think of was in massive amounts. The colors that were around from the foods to the flowers painted this perfect picture. Though it was all absolutely insane, I was still surprisingly reminded of God’s beauty.
The coffee house has got to be such a blessing to us. Since Lighthouse ministries own and run it, you stay in a constant state of worship. It surrounds you constantly and you become so consumed…it’s amazing. From the moment you wake up to the worship songs playing in the coffee house, to Alex and Abner that sit and sing and play the guitar all throughout the day, to the services, bible studies, and worship times that go on at night. It is so incredibly amazing and to think that God chose us and put us here for a reason is so amazing.
Last night they had a service in ENGLISH!!!! All I can say is…WOW!!! It was awesome. To be in the middle of Guatemala and be surrounded by people that speak English, from all over the world, under one roof worshiping and honoring one God. About 100 young people from the ages 18-40 flooded this place. It was packed. There were people from Canada, Australia, South Africa, US, Guatemala, Mexico, Mexico, Etc. It was an amazing time.
Since I left to come on this trip I haven’t experienced worship like that. The Lord knew how much I needed to be restored, refreshed, and renewed. He spoke to me a lot during the service about being a servant…a bond servant… to not only who I want to be a servant to, but to the least of these…even the ones I don’t want to.
“…whatever you do unto the least of these, you do unto Me.”
So… we have several different opportunities to minister while we are here. There is a hospital here that is for mentally challenged people they also have an orphanage, World Changers has an outreach institution here that we can go to on Tuesdays, and there is a man that goes every Thursday to minister in the dump.
Out of all these options the hospital is the one that I have been having the most trouble with grasping and getting a hold of. I don’t do well in hospitals. Every time I walk in, I feel the spirit of death and sickness come over me, almost like this blanket at times it’s so heavy I almost can’t breathe.
This is really hard for me because I know that these babies, kids, and older people need love just as much as the very needy and poor do, but I can not in my own strength do this.
I have been praying a lot about this because I know that the Lord obviously has called us here and wants us to minister in that hospital/orphanage for a reason, but I know that in order for me to do this my strength is going to have to come from Him.
Last night during the service He hit me pretty hard about this and said “Kim, these are my people. You have asked me to give you my heart for my people and in this you are going to have to allow me to break you and take you out of your comfort zone. Pray for me to give you the strength and I will give you the strength you need.”
This hit me hard, so I am praying for this and I know that He is going to use me in amazing ways while I am here. Like I have said before…come expecting and that’s what I am doing, expecting God’s miracles.
With all that said…I woke up this morning knowing today was the day to minister in the hospital. What to think? I admit…I had mixed emotions, but after my prayer time the Lord reminded me about last night and the conversation that we had. I humbled myself and asked the Lord for the strength I needed.
So…I actually got excited…I couldn’t believe it…I was excited…you know that was the Lord!!! We go to the hospital to start volunteering and they wouldn’t let me volunteer because I had to register and couldn’t register without a copy of my passport and 2 pictures, so I had to leave. I will go back tomorrow to register and hopefully be able to start my ministry there.
Please keep me in your prayers.
I love you.
