Two
weeks ago (in Swaziland) was the first time that I felt like I did not want to be here. My emotions were filled with anger,
frustration, inadequacy and a lot of tears. I cried a lot about how I cannot be a leader anymore and how I should
not be here. When it came down to I just
asked God to send me home…
But
then I remembered talking to one of my teammates, Jenni and she asked me when I
started feeling this way and it was after I had a really intense prayer time
with Erica. And then things started to
all come together…
A
month ago a few people told me that God wanted to move my gifts to a whole new
level and that I would be blessed with gifts not even I could predict. Interesting!?! I really think that those hard times were
just for me to move forward. It was a
time for transition where I did not feel like I knew who I was because I was not
who I was but not who God was creating me into. But now I finally feel like I am entering into a new level of prayer and
I am finally figuring out my leadership style. I am basically being the person that God has created me to be in this
moment. More importantly I am not
conforming to what the world defines my giftings as but I am allowing God to
work in the unique ways that He truly desires to work through me!
Romans 12:2
“Do not be conformed to
this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you
may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect”
