I really want to learn what the difference is between being obedient to the Lord and what people define as success in the world. Last year God really brought up being fear of failure. I spent a year figuring that one out. And even now I have opportunities to conquer it. But just a minute ago I realized when I think of success I just think about what success is portrayed as: a good career and being able to pay the bills and then some. And so i would always talk down where I was in my life……like oh well i am just traveling and working or i am just a student. But when I break it down and get past the what do others think about me complex (or spiritual issue..we will say) the question is how do i value success? Although the question might have to be How Does God Value Success?? ( but i am not there yet:)
Honestly I am not sure where this leaves me, other than in a place of redefining some basics and realizing that I am actually content with where I am. Also that there is no need for me to compare myself to another. Just to honor one another and really live my life For HIM full out and to truly be open to how God will create that. (wow seating back and having him direct and enjoying it and being obedient …..why does this sound simple yet when it is time to do it i get nervous…….)
Oh God I just pray for purity in myself in so many ways-Amen
