We were asked to write a blog about how we felt before leaving on this missions trip. Here is what I am expecting: 
I am expecting this trip to be grueling both physically and
spiritually. I have never backpacked before and I am going to be doing
it for 11 months!! It will be a pretty crazy change of pace.
Especially since right now I am having trouble with my right leg. One
of the muscles is not stretched out enough and it is pretty painful. I
am just trusting and praying that I will be up to the physical
standards necessary for this trip.
Spiritually, I know that I will be challenged in my beliefs. I am a bit
nervous about defending my beliefs to others because a lot of the way I
came to Christ was very much a personal journey where God revealed
himself to me. When I try to explain my own testimony to people who do
not know God they have a hard time believing it. But I take assurance
in the power of the gospel and its ability to change hearts regardless
of others’ confidence in my testimony.
Lately God has been revealing to me my many weaknesses in my character
which, to say the least, has been humbling. Seeing my weaknesses more
clearly has allowed me to see that I NEED the Holy Spirit so much. I
need to have the Holy Spirit’s self-control when I am dealing with
people who make me angry and who criticize me. I have realized these
last few months in my new job that God will lead many people in my life
and no matter if I like them or not, I need to treat everyone with God’s
love. Learning more about how much I have to go to be a more loving
person and more Christ like is kinda discouraging, but I guess I should
be glad that I am learning this now. I just praise God that He can
change me and transform my character to be more like Him.
A few worries I have about going on this trip mainly revolves around
raising support and really trusting God that He will send me on this
trip. Trusting Him that this is the right path for my time next year.
Trusting Him that I am not crazy to be dedicating one year to spreading
the gospel. It’s so funny to me that I have wanted to do something like
this since I became a Christian but when the time comes I am so
hesitant. I wish I could be full of joy about this trip and just have
complete faith that God will do this good work to completion in me.
- That I would stop worrying about support and trust God with this opportunity He has trusted me with.
- Pray that my joy would be restored when I talk about this trip
Also that God would heal my cousin Sanjay who has been in the hospital for the last 2 weeks.- That I would have the faith to ask people to support me
Thanks everyone!!
