Below is a praise report I emailed to my sisters in Christ. Although it was only initially addressed to my gal pals, as I composed it, I felt a stirring to post it here as well, for men and women to read. May God teach you what He wants to through this post! God Bless!
Dear Sisters, [& Brothers]
I am writing a short and sweet prse report. For weeks, my mind was consumed with anxiety. For the past two days: NONE. WOOF. : ]
For the past two days, Poppa Daddy’s been communing with me and romancing me in deeper, more intimate ways than I ever dreamed of. He’s literally blowing old paradigms and lies about myself to bits and pieces, stripping away anxiety that is just no longer part of my wardrobe ( ’cause you best believe I’m wearing His righteousness now!!!!) and He’s making it very clear that He’s changing my heart as I’m stepping further into his Peace.
As most of you know, as soon as I got off the plane and landed in England (and even before that) I was running around like a chicken with my head cut off. As you can guess, it got, really, really tiring. I was burning myself out,and I didn’t even recognize it! Especially while I was in Washington and Virginia, I tried really hard to rest, but, to be honest, since I was trying to rest in other ways than resting in Him and His promises, I wasn’t really resting at all! Prse to Him for this incredible revelation!
JC’s been incredibly patient as I’ve slowly seen and now accepted His invitation to just hang out with Him for a while. Although I’ve had many “quiet times” meaning there was no external noise in the room, there was so much internal noise in my head (my own thoughts, plans, agendas etc etc) That I wasn’t even really listening to what He wanted to say. (You catching what I’m throwing? You ever been there?) I’m currently in my relationship with Him that I’m learning, like really, really learning, deeper parts of what hanging out and communing with Him looks like, how it pans out, and how it’s EVERYTHING. EVERYTHING. ( The coolest thing is that I”m going to be learning this my whole life! I’m going to be a student forever!) I’m so smitten that what JC wants from me is just me, right here, as I am, right now. He doesn’t want to chill with me after I’ve raised a certain amount of financial support for the World Race, He wants to hang out with me now! I used to be so, so scared about it, but now because of His Love, the strongest thing, EVER, I’m now excited to go to deeper places in Him. Only He could take me out of fear and hiding and show me His Light! What an awesome Friend!
Within these past few days, He’s given me this great revelation that every single place I’ve been with Him in our relationship has prepared me for where I am with Him right now. ( The same thing is true for all of you! No matter where you’re at with Him right now, if you’re currently in a ” I – like – it here- regarding – my – relationship -with- you” spot, I guarantee that He’s put you there for a reason. (Enjoy it! Praise Him for it!) If you’re currently in a ” I -don’t- really -like- where- I -am -right- now- regarding – my- relationship -with -you” type of spot, again, praise Him for the spot you’re in.( I know it might not make any sense, but give it a try. You’ll be surprised what will happen.) You’re in that spot for a reason and I guarantee that He’s hoping,SO incredibly desperately that you’ll head back to Him, and you can! All you’ve got to do is tell Him you want to come back to Him. You can say, “Father, I’m sorry, thank you for bringing me to this place where I’m at right now. I’m not a fan of where I am with you right now, because I’ve been all over the place, and I haven’t been resting with you. I’m letting you know that I want to rest with your son, JC I want to rest in Him.”
I guarantee that He’ll hear it and be MORE than happy to get you on the Way that leads you back to Him, ’cause He cares like that.
I love sharing how Poppa’s been movin’ in my life! It’s my sincere yarp that this email is encouraging to you and leaves you feeling inspired and hopeful, not with any trace of guilt or shame (Who’s got time for guilt and shame? Not us!) Ladies, [&Gentlemen] remember it’s for FREEDOM that we’ve been set Free!
I want to thank you for your attention to my emails and yarping for me. As Pastor Mark Driscoll once said, ” I want to give Gd all of the glory, and I want to give thanks for you.” I love each and every one of you very much. May you enjoy the day Poppa’s blessed you with.
Love each of you to the Hubble telescope (and what it takes pictures of) and back,
– Kim
