For years, I saw each facebook picture of my friends’ engagement rings, wedding albums and their children’s baby pictures. During this time, the nasty plaque of insecurity and jealousy continued to build up in my heart.
With all of the plaque accumulating, I was headed toward only one thing: a heart attack.
My heart attack looked like this: finally coming clean to myself and to the Lord about my hard heart, the jealousy, the hurt and the insecurity I had about my “progression” (or “lack there of”). Through a prayer/confession between gritted teeth, I basically told God,
“Look, I know that beyond my bitterness, my friends are living great lives. I am mad that I get mad when I see story after story on my newsfeed and I feel hardly any joy, only bitterness that they have something I don’t have. Help me, God!”
When I felt in response,
“Do you really want to be happy for them? Ok, I can help you do that. Just one thing, you have to be content with the life I gave you first.”
Through this short dialogue, and lots of prayerful examination, I learned a very simple and important lesson.
God created everyone, every single human being to live out their own incredible and unique story.
Whatever you call it, your story, your journey, your life progression, it’s a beautiful thing. Believe that the story God’s written for you is a darn good one (even if there are ‘unexpected plot twists’.) Trusting Him and being content with your life story is a key element in enjoying it.
Whether you’re single, in a relationship, married, divorced, have kids, or don’t have kids, you really do have a great story, and it’s not over yet….
As I’m now walking out trusting the Lord with His plan for me, I’m more confident and secure in who I am. As my hope and security rises in God, my heart has opened up, and I can enjoy and celebrate others’ incredible life milestones.
His Love and Grace blows me away. I never, ever thought I’d feel this way, or that my life would look like this:
I now go on facebook excited to see all of the amazing milestones that my friends and acquaintances are having.
Over the past 28 years I’ve had a challenging, hard, wonderful, good journey, and I’m excited that it’s far from over. Whether I get the honor of “doing life” with a spouse and children by my side or whether I’m single for the rest of my life, I’m ok with it.
Why am I so ok with it? Because ::::drum roll please:::: I’m already in a relationship.
He’s a pretty cool guy.
He calls me out to be the most valiant, free woman I was designed to be.
He constantly reminds me that I’m his.
He never stops telling me that I’m beautiful, worthy, and extraordinary.
He gently lets me know when I’m not right, stubborn, or hard – hearted.
He always gives me his shoulder to cry on.
He even catches every tear that I shed.
He always, always makes me smile.
He gave me an unexplainably incredible Gift: His Spirit.
We’ve been in a real relationship for just a little while, but I’m sure (He promised) that it’d be an eternal one.
His name? Jesus.
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