Oct 24 2013 7:48 am (Seattle)
So it’s only been a few days post Training Camp. Months ago, I had made plans to fly to Seattle after camp, meet up with my family member, and stay with her for 10 days. Whilst at the ATL airport on Saturday, I learned that there were some HUGE potential obstacles from me seeing my family member, but by the Grace of God, I got on the plane and made it to Seattle and found my family member. I had a gut feeling that she needed many things, but when I saw this person it was totally clear that this person needs many things right now, including medical attention and, most importantly, God’s love. At the moment, I can’t get into too much detail about what’s happened to us since I landed in Seattle, what God has taught me and what He’s been doing through me and my Squad, but I can share and Praise God for He’s been consistently proving how faithful He is by taking care of all of my needs as well as my family member’s. (Philippians 4:19 “My God will meet all of your needs, according to His glorious riches, in Christ Jesus.”)
To be honest, the first 2 to 3 days post Training Camp was totally overwhelming to me. I was hoping to have some time to process, to breathe, but I quickly found out that that wasn’t going to be the case. I arrived in Seattle to see a family member, and glory to God, we were able to find each other, even with my lack of a cell phone and her lack of a cell phone. ( She wrote me an email, telling me of her location.) I got off the plane, and I quickly became got angry at God for not having a “hot minute” to process some of the incredible revelations I received at Training Camp. I began to compare my post Training Camp life with others, and I quickly got jealous of how much free time they had. My jealousy manifested into anger, which transformed into worry, which revealed that I was placing very little dependence and hope in God. It was a really scary awareness.
Thankfully, even though I was not consciously aware of it, somehow, I’ve been holding onto the Hope that He’s put within me, the Hope that has kept me going on. God’s also been consistently pouring His Grace into the situation, for my Squad has been praying for my family member and I, and they’ve been praying HARDCORE. It was so hard to realize I needed help, and reach out for it by asking my squad continuously pray for me, but honestly, I have been beyond blessed by their their prayers, messages and chats.I have no idea how I could have gotten through the past couple of days without these incredible bunch of warriors fighting for my aunt and I. I have to thank God for my squad, and it’s indeed God who deserves ALL of the Glory because He ALONE is worthy to be praised.
So here’s where I’m at. I’m more cognizant than ever before that I am indeed in a battle, but a battle that has already been won by my Big Brother Jesus. It’s the times that I’ve been straight up with God, telling Him “I’m lost; I’m scared, I’m confused, I’m weak.” where He’s been able to step in and fight for me. My time with my family member is not over, and it will be challenging to go to my next destination, but if I’m LISTENING and paying attention, I’ll be able to do nothing but Rest and Hold onto Hope because my God is Forever Faithful.
I wrote this poem 2 days ago. It’s called “Glory to Glory” May God show you what He wants to show you through this poem and post.
God Bless.
Glory to Glory
You know exactly where I am
because You’ve written my story
and you smile as I move from Glory to Glory
I haven’t wasted time, my heart is roaring
because I’m dancing from Glory to Glory
It’s when I become lost, I soon become found,
You patiently wait as I stumble around,
Pressure builds, tension rises, it’s hard to unwind,
keep getting caught in the whirlwind of my mind
When suddenly, the gears stop
my tired heart begins to respond,
and in the quiet stillness I clearly see
that I’m not failing, I never have been
Just been moving from glory to glory
You know exactly where I am
because you’ve written my story
and you smile as I move from Glory to glory.
I haven’t wasted time, my heart is roaring
because I’m dancing from Glory to glory
My present circumstances, they mean something
in the middle of this challenge, you, my God, are expanding
and I clearly realize that when it’s my burdens I bring
you take them and that’s when my heart can sing
You’re with me and so my heart will sing.
You know exactly where I am
because you’ve written my story
and you smile as I move from Glory to Glory
I haven’t wasted time, my heart keeps roaring
because I’m dancing from Glory to Glory
Let’s keep dancing from Glory to Glory!
