My life has been on the move, constantly changing for the last 3 years: new apartment, failed relationship, another new apartment, new job, new friendships, career change, new country (repeat 11 times), new relationship, new job, another new job, new state, more new friendships… OVER AND OVER.
Want to know a secret? I kind of love it. I love the excitement and newness of the unexpected. After the honeymoon period wears off, the dust begins to settle, and the schedule becomes routine, I tend to get bored.
Change is an adrenaline rush for me. It’s the transition period I dread -the waiting to figure out what new job I’m going to take, where I’m going to live, who I interact with on my day to day. Is it at all possible to skip the waiting game, advance straight to go, and collect $200?!
Because it’s where I find myself right now, sitting in the dreaded transition period. The Fellowship and my time at Adventures In Missions is over, and I’m excited to be back in Indianapolis. God put a passion and excitement for this city in my heart that can only come from Him. So I’m here, like he told me to be. Now what?
I’m applying for jobs, plugging into a church, and investing in my relationships -all good things that I feel are steps in the right direction. The problem is, I’ve put “finding the right job” on a pedestal -as if everything hinges off of that. Once I find the perfect job that perfectly fits my calling, my life will be complete and I can start actually living. It sounds absolutely ridiculous now that I’m publicizing it, but it is honestly the thought that has been playing on repeat in my head the last few weeks.
Here’s the thing: our entire life is a transition. Not only are we and the things around us constantly going to be changing and evolving, but earth is a holding cell for the main event: eternity.
Jesus, in His final prayer to God, intercedes for you and me saying, “They do not belong to this world anymore than I do.” (John 17:16) We were created with this longing for communion with our father in heaven. Heaven is the ultimate, most eagerly anticipated change, making earth, and our time here the ultimate transition period. So, just as I wouldn’t dream of wasting my life, I have to forge on through this transition period with the same zeal and passion, knowing there is much to do.
Life lesson: embrace the transition instead of wasting it because you’re likely to find yourself in the transition time and time again.
So what does that even look like? I guess for me, it means living on purpose NOW -not waiting until everything falls into place. I vow to stop calling this a transition period and view it as what it actually is: life.
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