You know when God wants you somewhere when He does the unexpected (to you the impossible) to keep you where you are
at.
Australia – an experience, to say the least,
for some of it to say the most. There are no other words for it. There are a
few things I found out about myself at the end of that month that I didn’t know
before. My prayer is that you keep me in your prayers that I can find away to
work out these things and ways that I can deal with them or accept them.
The last three days of Australia
our team hooked up with the Squad in Darwin before we headed out to Malaysia. Tuesday
night. We had just spent the last few days in Australia finding out new Squad
Leaders, Team Leaders and going through team changes, and I, during this entire
time, was stressing over my lacking in support. It was the 10,000 dollar mark
and I was further behind than I thought I was due to some miscommunication back
in the States. Needless to say, I was a little on edge when anyone asked me how
I was doing financially, which my caring squad-mates asked me at least once or
twice a day.
That night, the squad was being
blessed by Long Grass Church, the church that we were staying at as a Squad in
Darwin before we left for Malaysia, with an AMAZING Holy Spirit worship
service. There was singing, praying, and
speaking life into each other all going on at the same time – a few moments of
preaching there too in the midst of it. We basically ended up with an open mike
and just spoke life like breezes of fresh air over and into everyone.
I was sitting and singing and listening and my
mind just floated from a thought of my financial situation when Ben Gange, one
of the new Team Leaders (Rooted), stepped up to the open mike and spoke words
of love, to mean unrealistic act of love, out over the two of us who hadn’t made
it to the 10,000 mark yet. He challenged the Squad to donate some of their own
funds, if they were able to, to us who were lacking. My heart leapt for about ten
seconds as that seemingly impossible thought of my Squad actually donating to
my count. I cried at the idea of my Squad doing something like that for me, but
I quickly dismissed it because I personally didn’t think it would be realistic
to think that 42 plus-some strangers would donate to someone like me who was so
obviously immature and irresponsible that she didn’t make the financial
deadline and was risking to be sent home. No,
I thought to myself, my Squad (who most
of them aren’t fully funded themselves for all I know) would NOT donate to me,
at MOST they would pray over and lay hands on us. So I went from ten
seconds of hope filled to a few seconds of reality.
And so they called us who are
financially behind to the front. Hands were laid on us and prayers were being
spoken over us. C-Deli (Chelsea Cordell), prophesied full provision over us and
another person closed the session out in prayer. Then someone took it so the
next level. Someone took Ben seriously. My God did something that I thought
would NEVER happen, a hope, but NOT realistic, and He did it. Right in front of
us who were financially behind, the gauntlet was thrown down, someone verbally
second Ben’s challenge to U-Squad and out of this persons own pocket made the
first donation. And we stood there as we watched as U-Squad stepped up to the
challenge. Person after person either declared a donation, or took out their
wallets and donated right there on the spot. Some even took out there computers
and electronically donated. God moved in a way I obviously thought as impossible but in my heart of hearts for a split second cried out for.
Believe it or not I have had a
hard time connecting to the squad. I have for so long believed a lie from satan
that I am inferior to those around me and social handicapped by laziness and
self-centeredness (some would say one and the same) to forever be doomed to be
immature. Sadly enough this is a lie I have just RECENTLY found out, but praise
God that He showed it to me, and is constantly putting it in front of me when I
need the reminder of truth.
But that night the Squad stepped out and stepped up and did battle for me. They showed me a love that goes further beyond any words can claim. They kept me and my other squad-mate in the Race and on the field because they wanted to. If the Squad wasn’t united then it is now by taking claim to the prophetic speaking over us into action.
Thank you U-Squad.
“U-Squad! UNITED.
UNDIVIDED. You know we can’t be stopped.”
P.S.For those of you who are INTERSESTED in where I am at financially I am, with ALL things total, a little over 10,000. To show me even more of His
glory, my mom and I got to talk to each
other the next day and I found out that that night(for me) /day(for her) two
church members would start donating to me monthly.
