"Trust, trust, trust, trust, trust….Please Abba, help me trust"
These are the words that began my journal on the 25th of this month…
Everyday I can feel my heart growing tighter around the idea of raising money, asking people, trusting they'll reply positively, and then not seeing my fundraising page on the adventures website make any changes. Were my cries falling on deaf ears?? *I know better, but it bothered my heart.*
I felt a ticking clock behind each one of my ears, "Kiersten…you're time is slowly running out…what are you going to do if you can't go? What if you never get enough money…"
SHUT UP!!!
(Talking to the enemy of course.)
And, soon, he would.
I went to work Wednesday morning, going through the motions, trying to focus on the positive, a normal day. "Go on a break, Kiersten," my shift manager tells me. Taking off my apron, I slink into the nearest chair and pull out my phone, flipping through instagram and then through facebook…bored I thought, "I'll just check my fundraising page…maybe someone who got one of my letters sent something in…" What happened next can not be accurately described in this blog.
2/24/2013 Anonymous $1,030.
WHAT??????????
ARE YOU KIDDING ME? I couldn't believe it. I screamed! Literally, in the middle of Starbucks….my fellow partners (starbucks employees) all stared at me. "YOU WON'T BELIEVE WHAT JUST HAPPENED!!" I told them all the generosity of this anonymous donor, jumping up and down, my face turning so red with excitement. Everyone high-fived me and celebrated with me. "See, Kiersten, God works in mysterious ways!" one of my shift managers told me, and I hardly could reply with an agreement. Elation does not near describe that feeling I had in the moment. Instantly, I called my mom and told her the news, "Shut up, are you serious?!" A huge smile was plastered on my face. Completely.
Today, I emailed my mobilization leader, pestering her to see if I could possibly find out who it was without giving them praise they obviously didn't want, and sweetly she replied, "Praise God for the donation! But no…" I laughed. Of course.
SO….To Whom It May Concern: I don't know who you are or what you were thinking, but you have NO idea the joy you have instilled my heart, the hope in my bones, the rejuvenation to my fundraising, the thanksgiving in my prayers, and the melody in my song of praise.
Thank you doesn't cut it, but thank you. Wholly and completely. Praise God.
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