If I’ve learned anything on the world race it is that the Lord is always speaking. The catch is if I am paying enough attention to His voice to hear what He is speaking to me. I love the Lord because He uses sometimes the most unlikely or maybe unexpected is a better word; to teach me a lesson and that was exactly the case my first day of ministry in Moldova.
Kayla, Marcie and I arrived at the school so that we could work in the special needs classroom. I didn’t really have any expectations of what it would be like. I didn’t really have any previous experience but I was excited to do something new.
We walked in and did our introductions then I walked over to the couch to this girl, who I found out was named Anna. She was probably the most challenged out of the children. She isn’t able to speak but was completely mobile. She was quite aggressive with the other children and even the teachers but she just wants to be shown love and attention.
Anyways we were playing a game on the floor where there are tiles with colored squares and then the actual different colored squares and she had to match the right colors to each other. The time came to put the game away and as I watched her gather the squares she had a very specific method. To be completely honest it didn't make any sense to me. I mean I would have put the like colors together and stacked them, but she didn’t see it that way. She would switch them and flip them til she had them just the way she wanted them. I felt the Lord say to me in that moment that “He works the same way”. He said, 'What I do doesn’t always make sense to you. I don’t expect you to understand or make sense of it but just know I am still at work."
Sometimes all we can do is watch the Lord flip pieces of our lives back and forth and trust that he is having His way. It may be frustrating, it may seem like a mess, but He is God. He only does His best work in His children. Lord help me to not try and take the "squares" from you and do it my way. Lord have your way in my life because I know at the end of the day it will be better than my “logical” way.
Lord thanks for using Anna to teach me another life lesson. It was a great reminder that ultimately the Lord is in control, a lesson I thought I had conquered but I know I still have a lot of room to grow in. In those moments when you don’t understand what is going on in you or around you, realize you don’t have to. The Lord is faithful to His promises and He doesn’t do things out of order or by chance. He will get the "squares" of our lives exactly how He wants them in His time, and in His way we just have to be obedient and allow Him to work.
Me and Anna
