So here we are FEBRUARY 1st.…5 months til we Launch for the world race! Its kind of crazy to think how quick the time is going….wait….Im not surprised….time always gets me like that.
So I am still approximately 250 dollars short of making my first $3500 deadline! I would really like to hit that so I can start working towards the next big one... $6500. For the most part I have kept the faith and I am totally expecting God to show up and blow up my support account. I figure if YOU KNOW you are called, He can't NOT provide. So thank you again for those have supported already! SO humbled and blessed! So in one of my rough couple of days I wrote a note to God…and because I want to be vulnerable and share my heart with you guys I am going to post it! (unedited/unrevised)
Dad,
Sometimes I feel as though they expect I have it all together, but they'd be wrong.
On the inside I have my questions and insecurities…my why God whys, my blah boring ordinary days that drain me! I FEEL EMPTY!
I want to give it all to YOU but somehow my faithlessness clings to me…it ROBS me and I hate it.
I hate questioning you….I feel ASHAMED.
I know it all in my head but somehow I am having a melt down and finding it hard to move it from my head to my heart.
Refresh me o Lord, revive me! Show yourself to me because I don't want to sit here empty anymore! I need your touch. I need a miracle today….it can't delay any longer.
Yet Lord help me to trust your timing, your love for me outweighs it all. Why can't I wrap my mind around that! Oh right, my humanness gets in the way!
Thank you that I'm not supposed to understand why things happen the way they do, why not everyone gets their miracle! For you see the beginning to the end, and I see only what lies before me. You work all things for the good, even when it is the bleakest, darkest situation.
I TRUST YOU, because you hold my life in your palm. I TRUST YOU…because I am nothing without you. I am but a breath. Comfort me Lord! Be strong because I am weak, be faithful for I am faithless, be peace for I am a raging strom! Be my life…for without you I AM DEAD!
You are the best Dad…I LOVE YOU!
Your daughter,
Kiera
Whatever you are facing…NO circumstance or situation is to big for OUR GOD! Pour out your heart today…because an honest, vulnerable heart is a healthy heart… one ready to be healed! You are allowed to have rough days….just know who holds your world in HIS hands! KEEP FIGHTING THE GOOD FIGHT OF FAITH!
BLESSINGS:)
